the two moods

I seem to only ever have two moods, really happy and full of life, energy and positivity or so down I don't see a point in living anymore. There is no in-between, there is no been content, even for a moment. My overthinking is in full flow today. Do people hate me now, what can I do to make it better. But then my anger is coming out, I said I am sorry can we just move on please, you can see how much I am hurting right now, why hurt me anymore. Anyways, been content even just for a moment, I would love to feel that.

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