cary116
Mind over matter.
Just returned home. One of my parents friends died.
Payed last respects at funeral home.
Mass will be tomorrow morning.
I will be getting radiation.
Will visit gravesite and pray there after.
Won't go to funeral lunch. To sick. And quite honestly can not take any kind of mental stress at moment. Explode at everything.
She was a wonderful woman. Was like another mother. Never judged me.
Liked me as a boy. Liked me like a girl.
She never had children. Thrilled her to give me a nice blouse for Christmas. Never got anything from her as a boy. She loved sitting and talking to me. Always curious about my life. Never condescending.
So so sad.........
Can't help then not to think about self mortality when looking in casket.
How much time is left. Who will miss me when l go. Anyone?
Depressed enough at moment. Don't need more.
Anyways...... Time to sleep.
Think l will show froggy tonight, what a bubble bath is.
Probably a real bad decision. Guess l should research first. Don't want to hurt the little guy.
19 more days. Got to keep pushing.
It's mind over matter time. Don't think, just do and block off all discomfort. Sounds simple. It's more like navigating a mind field.
Got to rest. Really babble to much. Should work on that while battling the injustice in the world......... Later
The Raven is in a dark lonely place........
Not quite sure if it's from radiation or lack of mental control at moment.
Luv all........💋❤️🌹
Mind over matter.
Just returned home. One of my parents friends died.
Payed last respects at funeral home.
Mass will be tomorrow morning.
I will be getting radiation.
Will visit gravesite and pray there after.
Won't go to funeral lunch. To sick. And quite honestly can not take any kind of mental stress at moment. Explode at everything.
She was a wonderful woman. Was like another mother. Never judged me.
Liked me as a boy. Liked me like a girl.
She never had children. Thrilled her to give me a nice blouse for Christmas. Never got anything from her as a boy. She loved sitting and talking to me. Always curious about my life. Never condescending.
So so sad.........
Can't help then not to think about self mortality when looking in casket.
How much time is left. Who will miss me when l go. Anyone?
Depressed enough at moment. Don't need more.
Anyways...... Time to sleep.
Think l will show froggy tonight, what a bubble bath is.
Probably a real bad decision. Guess l should research first. Don't want to hurt the little guy.
19 more days. Got to keep pushing.
It's mind over matter time. Don't think, just do and block off all discomfort. Sounds simple. It's more like navigating a mind field.
Got to rest. Really babble to much. Should work on that while battling the injustice in the world......... Later
The Raven is in a dark lonely place........
Not quite sure if it's from radiation or lack of mental control at moment.
Luv all........💋❤️🌹