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When I Tried to Sue my Guardian Angel
I didn't believe in the supernatural until after 2009 when I started experiencing things right out of a horror movie. Initially, thinking I was experiencing a psychosis, I went to a couple of psychiatrists and tried all the class II anti-psychotic medications available at the time. I was diagnosed as schizophrenic, but none of the medications helped me do anything but sleep a little better for a while. I was proscribed 600 mg of Seroquel and 12mg of Ambien for a bit.
I bragged about the medications to a voice I was hearing at the time that called itself "The Lucifer" - obviously lying about it’s name whatever it was - and I told it something like "this is my hedge you can't do anything about it". Then one night I heard the voice say "now I'm going to show you how I can overcome the medications".
Shortly afterwards, I had very severe insomnia which lasted for a period of about three years and got ulcers. Even my psychiatrist once remarked, when I discussed the problem with him and the current amount of medication I was taking, "that's quite a bit of of medication for sleep". He then explained to me the importance of being careful with the dosages of medications which slow your breathing and your heartbeat..
When I questioned the voice about the whereabouts of my guardian angel one day - as I thought surely I "know my rights" and must have one... I "was given" the visual image of a man with wings in a closet tied up in ropes!! Later theories of mine were that the demon had handed my angel a large wad of cash, or that my angel, in a fit of despair, simply ditched his halo and went on holiday... ;)
In the end, becoming a Christian and drawing closer to the Lord healed me as none of antipsychotic medications I tried worked in terms of eliminating the strange things happening to me - smells with out any source of odor, sensations of being touched by something invisible, a strong overwhelming sensation of fear that would appear and disappear on the order of seconds and dreams and hints about things that would happen in the future.
In the course of seeking help, I spoke with Dr. Richard Gallagher who is a very nice person and was teaching at NY medical college at the time. He has an interesting book out called "Demonic Foes" - a really good read!!
I am still a great believer in modern medicine, psychiatry and psychology and think anyone thinking they might being having problems with spirits like demons, should first seek out a psychiatrist and try treatment and see if what happens. Ideally a psychiatrist, for a person seeking treatment, would be of their same faith and open to the possibility of spiritual warfare - though I know they are rare.
In fact, I remember walking around one day near the end of a nearby trail, a little depressed because I was unable to sleep, often being tormented by the voice during the daytime, and having run into a bit of skepticism about the existence of demons among several of the priests and pastors I had spoken to about my problems. I then prayed silently once again - a heartfelt prayer that time - voicing all my problems and once more asking the Lord for help.
About a half hour later, I crossed a street and went into a fast food place to get a drink as it was hot out that day. After paying for the drink and sitting down I noticed a man sitting with someone that worked at the fast food place with a book. I found out later that the man was leading a Bible study there with a young man who worked there.
We got to talking and I mentioned my state of affairs and he ended up giving me the number of a friend of his that was a psychiatrist, was also a reverend, and whom I learned later had had a demonic encounter of his own in a cabin near the top of K2.
What were the odds exactly?!!! This was one more strange experience that served to increase my faith as a Christian.
But the real truth is that inevitably trials and tribulations and nastiness of all sorts will come along when you become a Christian.. There is an explanation in 1 Peter 4:12-14 which talks about suffering for Christ:
"Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you."
The totally awesome demon image was a free image from Pixelbay via a page from user PendleburyAnnette. The background image of the house and nightsky was also free from Pixelbay. I added the clouds and used meshes and overlaid much of them with other free images I have accumulated to create the other two characters.
When I Tried to Sue my Guardian Angel
I didn't believe in the supernatural until after 2009 when I started experiencing things right out of a horror movie. Initially, thinking I was experiencing a psychosis, I went to a couple of psychiatrists and tried all the class II anti-psychotic medications available at the time. I was diagnosed as schizophrenic, but none of the medications helped me do anything but sleep a little better for a while. I was proscribed 600 mg of Seroquel and 12mg of Ambien for a bit.
I bragged about the medications to a voice I was hearing at the time that called itself "The Lucifer" - obviously lying about it’s name whatever it was - and I told it something like "this is my hedge you can't do anything about it". Then one night I heard the voice say "now I'm going to show you how I can overcome the medications".
Shortly afterwards, I had very severe insomnia which lasted for a period of about three years and got ulcers. Even my psychiatrist once remarked, when I discussed the problem with him and the current amount of medication I was taking, "that's quite a bit of of medication for sleep". He then explained to me the importance of being careful with the dosages of medications which slow your breathing and your heartbeat..
When I questioned the voice about the whereabouts of my guardian angel one day - as I thought surely I "know my rights" and must have one... I "was given" the visual image of a man with wings in a closet tied up in ropes!! Later theories of mine were that the demon had handed my angel a large wad of cash, or that my angel, in a fit of despair, simply ditched his halo and went on holiday... ;)
In the end, becoming a Christian and drawing closer to the Lord healed me as none of antipsychotic medications I tried worked in terms of eliminating the strange things happening to me - smells with out any source of odor, sensations of being touched by something invisible, a strong overwhelming sensation of fear that would appear and disappear on the order of seconds and dreams and hints about things that would happen in the future.
In the course of seeking help, I spoke with Dr. Richard Gallagher who is a very nice person and was teaching at NY medical college at the time. He has an interesting book out called "Demonic Foes" - a really good read!!
I am still a great believer in modern medicine, psychiatry and psychology and think anyone thinking they might being having problems with spirits like demons, should first seek out a psychiatrist and try treatment and see if what happens. Ideally a psychiatrist, for a person seeking treatment, would be of their same faith and open to the possibility of spiritual warfare - though I know they are rare.
In fact, I remember walking around one day near the end of a nearby trail, a little depressed because I was unable to sleep, often being tormented by the voice during the daytime, and having run into a bit of skepticism about the existence of demons among several of the priests and pastors I had spoken to about my problems. I then prayed silently once again - a heartfelt prayer that time - voicing all my problems and once more asking the Lord for help.
About a half hour later, I crossed a street and went into a fast food place to get a drink as it was hot out that day. After paying for the drink and sitting down I noticed a man sitting with someone that worked at the fast food place with a book. I found out later that the man was leading a Bible study there with a young man who worked there.
We got to talking and I mentioned my state of affairs and he ended up giving me the number of a friend of his that was a psychiatrist, was also a reverend, and whom I learned later had had a demonic encounter of his own in a cabin near the top of K2.
What were the odds exactly?!!! This was one more strange experience that served to increase my faith as a Christian.
But the real truth is that inevitably trials and tribulations and nastiness of all sorts will come along when you become a Christian.. There is an explanation in 1 Peter 4:12-14 which talks about suffering for Christ:
"Dear friends, do not be surprised at the fiery ordeal that has come on you to test you, as though something strange were happening to you. But rejoice inasmuch as you participate in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed when his glory is revealed. If you are insulted because of the name of Christ, you are blessed, for the Spirit of glory and of God rests on you."
The totally awesome demon image was a free image from Pixelbay via a page from user PendleburyAnnette. The background image of the house and nightsky was also free from Pixelbay. I added the clouds and used meshes and overlaid much of them with other free images I have accumulated to create the other two characters.