Back to photostream

My Nessie 16/09/1977-23/08/2020

My beautiful, big sister passed away three weeks ago today. I would like to share some words I wrote for her so as to let others know even for just a moment the incredible woman she was...

 

I don’t even know how to begin to put into words how my heart is breaking. Last Sunday our beautiful sister, aged 42 was unexpectedly taken to fly with the angels.

There were times in our younger lives when our very survival depended on having each other, the bond that creates is like no other. I am the woman I am today largely because of you. Your kindness, gentleness and love for me was a constant beacon even through the darkest storms.

I wished so immensely that I could put back into place every broken piece that never should have been fragmented but I just couldn’t. I am so sorry Nessie that your chance to be the wholeness of who you deserved to be was taken from you.

That does not take away for one second from all the wonderful ways you enriched our lives everyday and the incredible woman you were.

Often in this world a persons measure and worth is gauged by their “achievements”...the job, the salary, the house, FB friends, all of the outwardly things but that is not the legacy we leave. What matters is the way in which we loved and nobody did that better than you. The unconditional love you gifted us with we will carry in our hearts everyday.

It was within that love that our sisterhood stood strong...always the three amigos lol. Me, you and Terri have had each other’s back through thick and thin. When you couldn’t through no fault of your own and certainly not through lack of love take care of your babies then we rallied around you and took them under our wings as our own but never taking away from your rightful place also as their Mumma.

I can’t imagine the pain and heartache you went through watching your sisters raise your children and through all your silent tears you just loved the shit out of all of us. What a fucking amazing mother and sister.

That is a legacy!!! And it will never be forgotten.

We will honour you everyday by loving your babies and your nieces and nephew with every inch of who we are. And by loving our dear Mum who is the matriarch of our family. We love the way we do because our Mumma taught us that!

This is not a goodbye because I know you are in our eternal home and one day we will all be reunited, until that time we will miss you everyday.

I love you my beautiful sis 💛

 

In the arms of an Angel- www.youtube.com/watch?v=1SiylvmFI_8

16,952 views
363 faves
145 comments
Uploaded on September 13, 2020