2019
This is going to be a long one! After years of speaking to counsellors and being told, “happy for you to talk about IT, but it’s not part of our speciality”, I thought after 40 odd years of living like this, I needed to reach out and speak to someone who was!
I’ve been feeling pretty low, for the past few years. Combination of work, my medical condition, and life in general. And there is the now almost constant thoughts that I need to live my life different, but still stay with my wife. And that at the moment is a no-no, Kirsty is allowed, but he has to be here as well!
So early this year I braved and spoke to my GP, and to my pleasant surprise he was amazing. He asked loads of questions, very understanding, and asked was transition on the cards? Once he knew the story, he said that he was sure that there was something available, and after a little hiccup, I was referred to the local sexual health service.
A bit strange, but when I had my first session, I very quickly realised that it was the right place! I have never felt so comfortable talking about what some may call an issue, what I call life! We got over the boring stuff pretty quick, the fact that I’m living the wrong life, that I hate shaving(!), the fact that if I had to stop doing what I do I could but would hate it etc. Most of the hate things, I pulled a face! Even though I didn’t know….sub conscious! That was a weird experience! Having someone validate my thoughts, just by my look was surprisingly an amazing feeling! I always thought that it was just me brain saying what I wanted.
Yesterday the wife had her first appointment, and on the cards is a joint one! It came up in discussion that Kirsty has just been floating around for the last 20 years, (I am a lot older!), this is about the date we set our guidelines! If anything, this is getting us to talk about the elephant in the room, and hopefully make our life even better than what it is now.
2019
This is going to be a long one! After years of speaking to counsellors and being told, “happy for you to talk about IT, but it’s not part of our speciality”, I thought after 40 odd years of living like this, I needed to reach out and speak to someone who was!
I’ve been feeling pretty low, for the past few years. Combination of work, my medical condition, and life in general. And there is the now almost constant thoughts that I need to live my life different, but still stay with my wife. And that at the moment is a no-no, Kirsty is allowed, but he has to be here as well!
So early this year I braved and spoke to my GP, and to my pleasant surprise he was amazing. He asked loads of questions, very understanding, and asked was transition on the cards? Once he knew the story, he said that he was sure that there was something available, and after a little hiccup, I was referred to the local sexual health service.
A bit strange, but when I had my first session, I very quickly realised that it was the right place! I have never felt so comfortable talking about what some may call an issue, what I call life! We got over the boring stuff pretty quick, the fact that I’m living the wrong life, that I hate shaving(!), the fact that if I had to stop doing what I do I could but would hate it etc. Most of the hate things, I pulled a face! Even though I didn’t know….sub conscious! That was a weird experience! Having someone validate my thoughts, just by my look was surprisingly an amazing feeling! I always thought that it was just me brain saying what I wanted.
Yesterday the wife had her first appointment, and on the cards is a joint one! It came up in discussion that Kirsty has just been floating around for the last 20 years, (I am a lot older!), this is about the date we set our guidelines! If anything, this is getting us to talk about the elephant in the room, and hopefully make our life even better than what it is now.