Stressor (126:365)
I don't think I've made a secret of the fact that I've been under stress. The kids are stressful, I have too much on my plate for the summer, and so on. But my biggest stressor is the fact that my husband is doing a job search. He's a finalist at two places. If he got either job, we would be moving in June or July. Both jobs are halfway across the country. Far away from our families. We're already far away from our families, but this would be farther.
I'm very much a control freak, and I have almost zero control over any of this. I mean, of course if I vetoed a place Matt would honor that, but I can't write applications or do interviews, and I can't hire him for the jobs I want him to get. I'm powerless. And that's very stressful for me. Not to mention all the conflicting feelings I have about what's happening now -- part of me wants him to get one of those jobs so bad I can taste it, but then part of me is terrified and wants him to call the whole thing off and forget he ever interviewed.
So if I seem flaky, it's because I have a lot on my mind, and it's coming to a head in the next few weeks. Pray for strength and guidance for us, would ya?
May 5
Stressor (126:365)
I don't think I've made a secret of the fact that I've been under stress. The kids are stressful, I have too much on my plate for the summer, and so on. But my biggest stressor is the fact that my husband is doing a job search. He's a finalist at two places. If he got either job, we would be moving in June or July. Both jobs are halfway across the country. Far away from our families. We're already far away from our families, but this would be farther.
I'm very much a control freak, and I have almost zero control over any of this. I mean, of course if I vetoed a place Matt would honor that, but I can't write applications or do interviews, and I can't hire him for the jobs I want him to get. I'm powerless. And that's very stressful for me. Not to mention all the conflicting feelings I have about what's happening now -- part of me wants him to get one of those jobs so bad I can taste it, but then part of me is terrified and wants him to call the whole thing off and forget he ever interviewed.
So if I seem flaky, it's because I have a lot on my mind, and it's coming to a head in the next few weeks. Pray for strength and guidance for us, would ya?
May 5