Elijah

~And we were bold,

Over the world,

We were flying through the satellites,

 

We had ahold,

Of the lightning strikes,

When we should have been afraid of heights.

 

And I was trying just to get you,

And now I'm dying to forget you,

Cause I knew I couldn't catch you,

So I left the sky,

And I fell behind.

 

We were one in the same,

Running like moths to the flame,

You'd hang on every word I'd say,

But now they only ricochet,

We were falling away,

You left me with a bittersweet taste,

But when I send my heart your way,

It bounces off the walls you made,

Ricochet.

 

If I was whole,

I'd turn right now,

I'd forget it and just walk away,

Cause I've been told,

That I'm dragging it out,

But I've been dying just to see your face,

And all I wanted was to say "goodbye",

Into the fortress and you're stuck behind,

And in the silence now I realize...

 

That after all I built the wall.

 

We were one in the same,

Running like moths to the flame,

You'd hang on every word I'd say,

But now they only ricochet,

You were falling away,

You left me with a bittersweet taste,

But when I send my heart your way,

It bounces off the walls you made,

Ricochet.

 

All these broken souls,

They never make me whole,

They don't, they don't know my heart,

They don't know my heart,

 

I'll send out my soul,

To worlds more beautiful,

But they won't, they won't know my heart,

It's the darkest part.

 

We were one in the same,

Running like moths to the flame,

You'd hang on every word I'd say,

But now they only ricochet,

You were falling away,

You left me with a bittersweet taste,

But when I send my heart your way,

It bounces off the walls you made,

Ricochet.

 

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Ricochet - Starset

 

www.youtube.com/watch?v=gEGnMrluQh8

 

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All messages sent to you are ricocheting into silence, and all I have left is the last message you sent to me before you vanished without a word.

 

We started something that never really got to flourish, and I carry a lot of regrets about that. I blame myself for you being gone. I was never around, so it makes sense, and it's karma that you aren't here either, just before RL calls me away for a long time.

 

It's been 6 months since I last heard from you and I miss you. I was too late to catch you before you left, and it sucks that I couldn't even say a personal goodbye. Now, I'm almost out of time, but every day I still hope you'll respond, if not to me, then to anyone in our family outside of SL, to let us all know you're okay. The silence is horrible, not knowing what's become of you. Everyone is worried. I can only hope and pray that you're safe and well out there.

 

It's hard to express what Elijah means to me. He was a friend who then became more, and I have a lot of affection for him. When we first met, I didn't take him seriously. I didn't ever think he was really serious about me in those early days, either. I thought he'd just be like all the others. That joke was on me. He was polite, smart, respectful, funny, mature and interesting, and honestly he caught me by surprise. I was too guarded to let him close sooner, because I didn't want to mess up a precious friendship that had become so important to me. But eventually we agreed to try.

 

He deserved more and better. Now I wish I'd been braver before when I'd had the time. I know I pushed your patience, and I wish I'd tried harder to be there. You never had expectations, you never asked for anything except any small time I could give, and you knew what you'd signed up for, but I still blame myself for pushing you away with my absence.

 

If anything, I deserve this silence, but I wanted you to know regardless how important you are to me, how much respect and love I have for you, and how grateful I am for all the care, time, attention and loyalty you showed me in the years that we knew each other. I miss you, and hope that one day, if I can come back to SL, we can meet again. I hope to see you again and to stay in touch, but if life has other plans, then I guess this is the only goodbye I get to make.

 

So thank you for being you, and for being by my side. You're a rare diamond on SL, a genuinely good and sincere person who doesn't play games. You lit up every place with your (awful) puns and witty jokes, and your wicked sense of humour. I was so lucky to walk hand in hand with you for a while, however brief that time was, and I wanted you to know that no matter where life takes us, I'll always cherish the memories we made.

 

You had a seven year plan. Time's not up yet, but if we both come back someday, maybe we can make that call together.

 

Stay safe, and thank you again for everything <3

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