Happy new year 2024!

What could I say? For many it has been a very complicated year. As I already said in a previous publication, I have had to face my greatest fears and gradually get out of the dark hole in which I was stuck. Throughout this year there have been many times when I have been on the verge of giving up. "I can't do it", "I'm not enough", "I deserve whatever happens to me" and "I'm never going to get it" have been my most recurring thoughts, and I would be lying if I said that I have never felt tempted to pay attention to them, to leave everything and simply go with the flow.

 

But somehow I have managed to move forward. Whether by embracing anger, despair, or hope itself, I have achieved things that others, or even myself, believed I could not achieve. I managed to stop crying because of my grief, I managed to get my driving license (and I haven't run over any grannies in the process, we can be proud) and I have started studying Pharmacy and Parapharmacy, a complicated area (especially for someone who was never of science, but of literature), and I have managed to pass the first trimester with one of the best grades in the class after a lot of effort and perseverance.

 

2024 will be very complicated for me. I still have a long way to go to be able to love myself, accept all the bad things that happened and show the world and myself that I am worth it. I am going to continue fighting for it and to achieve my dream of being free from my dementors.

 

I'm still broken, but maybe I'll be able to conjure my own Patronus after all.

 

I wish you all a prosperous and happy new year. May you also fight for yourselves and achieve all your goals ♥

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