***Broken***Wanderlust

I was asked to do a series of images taking visitors through the journey of my own story told with the theme Wanderlust. This is my interpretation. My journey of mind, self-discovery, the daily fight to overcome the fear of my current state of fragility.

 

This series has me with a broken bulb as a head and a brain full of moths. Two images have me alone wandering at dusk using the light play with moths casting shadows blocking my faint glow.

 

I don't know if any of you can understand that when I hold my camera in RL I am fearless. I am confident, focused, and excited. I feel alive! I would wake excited to relive those moments as I fumbled to retrieve my SD card from my Nikon. Photography was a daily high. I miss it so much. I miss people and gatherings. I miss seeing my friends, my family. I miss seeing smiles. It's a deep ache that won't go away and it scares me.

 

Seems I was so busy trying not to die from Covid that I stopped doing the things that made me feel alive.

 

LISTEN

 

So If you see the girl I used to be

Could you tell her that I'd like to find her

And if you see the shell that's left of me

Could you spare her a little kindness

'Cause I've been high and I've been low

I've spent a thousand nights alone, tryna hold on tight

And feelings come but they won't go

Please won't someone take me home before I lose my mind

 

Am I broken?

Am I flawed?

 

Do I deserve a shred of worth or am I

Just another fake, fucked up lost cause?

And am I human?

Or am I something else?

'Cause I'm so scared and there's no one there

To save me from the nightmare that I call myself

I've tried everything and anything

But nothing seems to work quite like it should

Between the madness and the apathy

Seems there's nothing left inside of me that's good

'Cause I've been high and I've been low

I've spent a thousand nights alone, tryna hold on tight

And feelings come but they won't go

Please won't someone take me home before I lose my mind

 

Thanks so much to Ella Pavlona for including me ♥

I am honored to have again been invited to join this project displayed at Mindful Cove.

 

 

 

 

Art as Mindfulness: Wanderlust

 

20.02.2022 - 27.03.2022

 

@ Mindful Cove

 

 

 

Opening Event : 20.02.2022 @ 6 a.m. SLT

 

 

TAXI

 

 

 

Done