landbergmary
Respite
The place I felt the most safe and peaceful was in my garden. Sitting in the shade under the giant heads of the sunflowers brought me the respite I needed to refocus and calm my head and heart during some difficult transitions.
The flowers wouldn’t shade me completely however. My feet were always sticking out into the sunshine, like two glowing beacons of light. I would eventually be found, often too soon. A curious neighbor child would peer over the fence and ask me what I was doing. Joe, our playful black lab, would find me and tenaciously want me to through his ball. It seemed like just as I would settle into the warm earth, I would hear my daughters calling me from the kitchen window, they needed their mommy.
Sometimes I just wanted to become so small I could fit inside a sunflower and pull the pedals around me like warm satiny blankets of happy yellow sunshine. To this day I will take myself there in meditation. I cuddle into a bed of warm moist pollen and carefully wrap myself up in the soft pedals. I hear the calming buzz of nearby bees and I feel gentle puffs of air on my skin from the wings of butterflies. The air is warm and fragrant. I rest, slumber, and dream.
Respite
The place I felt the most safe and peaceful was in my garden. Sitting in the shade under the giant heads of the sunflowers brought me the respite I needed to refocus and calm my head and heart during some difficult transitions.
The flowers wouldn’t shade me completely however. My feet were always sticking out into the sunshine, like two glowing beacons of light. I would eventually be found, often too soon. A curious neighbor child would peer over the fence and ask me what I was doing. Joe, our playful black lab, would find me and tenaciously want me to through his ball. It seemed like just as I would settle into the warm earth, I would hear my daughters calling me from the kitchen window, they needed their mommy.
Sometimes I just wanted to become so small I could fit inside a sunflower and pull the pedals around me like warm satiny blankets of happy yellow sunshine. To this day I will take myself there in meditation. I cuddle into a bed of warm moist pollen and carefully wrap myself up in the soft pedals. I hear the calming buzz of nearby bees and I feel gentle puffs of air on my skin from the wings of butterflies. The air is warm and fragrant. I rest, slumber, and dream.