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VANISHING ACT

"I vanish into poetry as the sunlight mingles with the mist

I spy a boat across the water as I greet the sunrise in a lover's tryst." - AP (inspired by Oleg)

 

Soundtrack : www.youtube.com/watch?v=AaouEHiuuYM

VANISHING ACT - LOU REED

 

FLOAT IN TO A MIST

 

Take me now

while I am up

while I am down

while I have happy news to read

and sad news that I found

let me float into a mist

and vanish from the Earth

let me fly above the clouds

and see below the fields where birth

and death flow side by side

like the strongest river and sea of yellow flowers

and hope and faith walk hand in hand

show me how this promised land

softens and hardens beneath my feet

like sand and toffee apples cracked

and parched and suffocating defeat

self-deprecating and all I lacked

was time to heal

and time to be me

to run and laugh

to fly high and free

but you gave me an anchor to my life

and you gave me free will

and I squander these gifts

and I still get ill

but who is there who will take my hand

and who is there left who will understand

that here on earth is the promised land

but we break our promises

like we break the wind

and we take the love for granted

and give so little back and so much binned

what becomes of the seeds that are never planted

I could tell you I was sorry

I could try to make it right

but I don't deserve the chance

my broken wings are ever-ready for fight or flight

so let me go now gently

let me float into the mist

it's too little

it's too late

to wonder if I will be missed

what will make me happy

what will make me smile

I give to you my everything

I run that extra mile

but nothing that I do can ever

make up for the gaps

the silences

the way I run

the things in me that don't relax

so now I sit here crying

but am I crying for you or me

I do not like pity in any form

life and love is such a mystery

and I feel like first night in dorm

homesick lovesick puppy dog tales

and tears trickling like Niagara

Falls and fools and spout like whales

the little lies you whispered to me

were the sweetest and the ones that cut

and for all I know that I am foolish

I could see we were wedged deeply in a rut

but what is the answer I do not know

I have no purpose or place to go

yet I find myself dreaming and distancing like

Virginia Woolf in sheep's clothing

pockets ladened heavily as the shroud

shrink wraps around me the fear and the loathing

loses it's lofty wafty transparency

as I float into a mist to meet my destiny

and the mist is half of mistake

and the other half is take

and I hope for goodness sake

I will come to my senses before I wake

oh why do so many words sound the same

but when they are written look really quite different

I am just as I am but “somehow different” (Thank you Dieter)

and I remain just the same I am not indifferent

but in or out or roundabout

all roads lead to Rome or roam

spinning the wheel and tossing the dice

a spinning wheel's yarn twined hearts to bring them home

and now I am at the water's edge

my barefeet stepping into the foam

who will prevent me will it be a mistake

as I float into a mist

the earth beneath my feet doth shake

as I float into a mist …

 

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Contrary to the poignant emotions evoked in my poem, I am pleased to say that the feeling was fleeting as are all emotions aren't they ; 0) I would like to share with you some good news.

On my birthday I received from my doctor long-awaited news. Earlier this year I underwent a small procedure and a biopsy was taken. I was told to expect cancer and now I learn that it is benign, so I am once again thanking God for a miracle. If I had to store my miracles in a box, I would require a very big box! : 0) I have a small scar from the stitches. It's a bit bumpy still, but is fading already. I like to touch this scar and remind myself of all the joys in my life and all the love and light that surrounds me and how each and every day is a miracle.

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