MY REFLECTION TROUBLES ME

“If something seems too hard, let go. It is the hardest and yet the most simplest thing to do, but in letting go we acknowledge that that certain something was never meant for us and trying to cling on just brings about more unhappiness, not only to us, but to others too. Today I find that the one who understands me most is not the one I love the most, nor is it someone who loves me the most … matters of the heart are felt not heard and though the silence is deafening I am grateful to the one who found me there and brought me back.” - AP

 

Soundtrack : www.youtube.com/watch?v=B65rD-B7meE

PEOPLE – SOPHIE ZELMANI

 

The air is blue

surrounding me instead of you

my heart stops still

the echoed beat sounds in my ear

and all I know and all I fear

comes rushing; rising through my veins

and I am me and all the pain

I ever felt leaves me alone

to stand here chilled to aching bones

frozen in this quiet moment

solitude that feels so numb

the memories that leave me wanting

you instead; to bring you home

ssh! Silence! I thought I heard a noise

someone standing close to me

breathing warm air on my neck

the tiny hairs so tenderly

rise up like flowers that reach for light

for sunshine and the stars so bright

I lit a candle but a breeze

so swiftly blew; I felt my knees

buckle under and pull me down

in darkness praying for a sign

that all was well with you and me

I peered into the space beside me

sensing there was someone there

someone who might hear my prayer

I spoke aloud and closed my eyes

hoping this feeling would subside

but still an uneasy suffocation

hands round my throat; a choking sensation

but it was just my imagination

there was nothing left to fear

surely not in this place so holy

where so many parishioners found their peace

and minds were stilled and melancholy

was taken away; replaced with grace

I felt the cold winds turn around

the sound of changes ringing

the warm stones softened underground

I heard the sounds of angels singing

it was very distant; a gentle hum

but comforting it achieved it's mission

to heal the wounds of heart and soul

my prayers were answered; I just listened

no need to beg; no need for words

all is known; our prayers are heard

and we are redeemed from all our sins

are freed from all our mortal whims

the things we ask and do not receive

perhaps they are just not meant to be

the difference between need and greed

the planting of a beautiful seed

we may want and we may ask

we may feel some is a daunting task

but simply letting go of ego

let go of self and freely go

how wonderful it feels to me

to know this simple way to be

and I will remember it all my days

when I found freedom from my ways.

 

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My artwork is a compilation of 3 of my photographs.

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