TREADING WATER UNTIL THE DAY WHEN WE WOULD BOTH BE FREE

“He said "I see you"

I said “Thank you, no one ever did.”

― Ayushi Mittal

 

Soundtrack : www.youtube.com/watch?v=MyPu3SUDw94

TELL HIM by CELINE DION and BARBRA STREISAND

 

Video footage link posted to me by my lovely friend Andrea <3

themindunleashed.org/2015/05/she-sat-with-many-strangers-...

 

ETERNITY IS JUST THE START

 

I fell for you and tumbled down the mountain to your feet

In a single bless-ed moment I was high enough to touch the sky

then low enough to feel the earth beneath my feet

Tears ran down my cheeks as sudden as the April showers

broke through the sunshine of my daydreams

and pooled like blood from open wounds

that seeped amid the bowers

of ancient forest trees and brackened floors

as dry as dust and red like rust

where occasionally the sun reached down and touched the ground

and thunderous stormy skies cracked overhead and flashed

as lightning struck the canopy of memories that were locked away

until a Summer's day ended in a torrent of stinging raindrops

fat and shaped like pear drops that no longer tasted sweet

when the roughened sugared surface had dissolved

and left a smoother feel to soothe our hungry tongues

and relieve us of the broken moments of our dreams

when reality steeped in anxious whispered,

crumbling words that toppled from our lips

like buildings fell, condemned by dynamite and broken bricks

exploded from the dusty ground up to the bright blue skies

and shattered in a second raised to the ground

and dust of broken promises

and memories of what we could have been

dissipate in early morning mist and sticky cobwebs filled with dew

and cuckoo spit so pure and white and frothy

like our early morning coffee just the way you liked it

latte with two sugars to take away the bitterness

and soften all the words we couldn't speak

but caused our minds to blow and rumble

and bit our tongues to stop the grumble

that rose up out of darkness where only light should be

that final morning when you left without a single glance at me

your eyes downcast I could not see the pain

you spared me even then

and yet I sat and watched you carefully,

drinking in the last of you

that I would ever see and if you'd only raised your head just once

you would have seen yourself mirrored in my bright blue eyes

and unshed tears giving out the faintest glimmer of one last hope

would it have been enough and is it right for me to question now

what could have been, what might have been if only

you had had the courage to stand and face your demons

and I would have found the strength to face mine too

and together we could have stood there side by side

and fight together for love and freedom from the clutches

of a world that never understood us and where we were only

treading water until the day when we would both be free

but now without you here I am weak and suffer more

but still I hold you in my heart

though I can't hold you in my arms

and if you appeared before me now I would give you all I am

and ask for nothing in return but if I never see you here again

I pray and wish for you a life

much better than the one you left behind

and hope with all my heart that you found

someone else who cares

for you and makes each moment

like a dream we once shared together

and if I can wish this much for you I could wish it for me too

and finally I could let you go

and you could release me from this pain

I wonder if the choice will ever be ours

or will fate and destiny decide

but all I know is what I know now

and all I have is what I have now

and if that is not enough

then I will leave behind a legacy of sorrow

but that would never do for me,

because I want for you the sweetest of tomorrows

and in my mind I see you dancing free along the sands of time that never once belonged to me

but was only mine on loan for moments not eternity

and satisfied with this I blow a final kiss

into the winds of changing time

and hope one day you'll find me

if not in this life then in the next

for I believe we act and play our roles eternally and divine

each lifetime lived a little further to the end of line

until one day several lifetimes from the here and now

we will finally see an end to the greatest story

of love and devotion ever found

and relinquish the tight grip we have

upon a world that never understood

how two people such as us

could ever have loved and found such wonder

in each other and all the beauty

that surrounded us even when we parted

we had other things to see, to do,

increase our knowledge, learn and teach

and often this meant not being within each others reach

but silently and softly as we tread our final path

our souls are one, our hearts beat time, we face each other one last time and laugh

as we dissolve into the ether

and blow with warm winds to another world

more beautiful than the one we left so many times before

and we float with angels wings

upon the clouds so soft as eider down

and look down upon the earth

where once as mortals given birth

we lived and loved so many life times together and apart

but now at journey's end eternity is just the start

of something better than could ever have been dreamed

and all the pain and sadness leave us

and now we feel no pain

we can rejoice in certainty that everything that went before

was bravely fought and valiantly endured, was necessary

so we could reach this final point

of love and understanding for all eternity.

 

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