OUR CINEMA MINDS HAVE PICTURES INSIDE
You must think me as fickle as the English weather, but I crave your indulgence for I am like a butterfly, flitting here and flitting there; caught between two worlds; often half-awake and half-asleep in equal measures; battling storms and searching for the warmest sun; never seeming to get much done and yet I do. What must it be like to be fully awake; to be completely present at any given moment or to sleep so deeply and never dream. I am attempting always to raise my consciousness. I no longer think of the set-backs that occur as failings. The act of trying is enough and the secret is to never give up hoping, because, having taken that brave decision to let go of certain people and certain things in my life, and believe me when I say that the decisions I have made recently have not always been easy ones, I find that what remains is a smaller foundation, but a stronger one, on which to build a better future. I am continually adjusting my sails, looking for that perfect place to lay anchor, but perhaps I have already come full circle … only time will tell ; 0)
“I want to paint a picture with my poetry
I want to paint a new world with my art
I want to paint a dream and wrap it around you
I want to paint a wish of love and sew it in your heart.” - AP
Soundtrack : www.youtube.com/watch?v=41Hw48h4FGQ
THE FIRST THING I SEE – IMAGINARY FUTURE & KINA GRANNIS
Shattered dreams come back to haunt me
fragments of my life before
I brush away the painful memories
dash them to the wooden floor
they slip between the boards and then
falling deeper gather dust
I will leave them until I'm certain
when I need hope; when I can trust
the beatings of my heart to find me
wanting; yearning more and more
pick up the rhythm of those feelings
that I left withering behind closed doors
even from pain strength can be gathered
especially from pain I found my way
found the light deep within me
by letting go of those yesterdays
I watch the sun in the golden hour
seems to grow and glow so warm
I could stand here watching; waiting
until it sets and rises at dawn
inbetween I'll watch the stars
feel the darkness; search for Mars
night cloak me in your mysteries
tell me what's beyond the trees
can you hear me; feel me; touch me
whisper sweetness on your breath
like a Summer's breeze I'm waiting
for a chance to find what's left
build upon this small foundation
make it strong and make it last
create a future with you this time
erase the failings of the past
tiny shards of glass from pictures
cut through my deepening reverie
pull me back through time in motion
open my veins and let me bleed
those days are gone
those days are gone
the future's bright
I'm not alone
forever more
I'm not alone
at last
at last
I found the long way home.
- AP - Copyright © remains with and is the intellectual property of the author
Copyright © protected image please do not reproduce without permission
Original artwork by me
OUR CINEMA MINDS HAVE PICTURES INSIDE
You must think me as fickle as the English weather, but I crave your indulgence for I am like a butterfly, flitting here and flitting there; caught between two worlds; often half-awake and half-asleep in equal measures; battling storms and searching for the warmest sun; never seeming to get much done and yet I do. What must it be like to be fully awake; to be completely present at any given moment or to sleep so deeply and never dream. I am attempting always to raise my consciousness. I no longer think of the set-backs that occur as failings. The act of trying is enough and the secret is to never give up hoping, because, having taken that brave decision to let go of certain people and certain things in my life, and believe me when I say that the decisions I have made recently have not always been easy ones, I find that what remains is a smaller foundation, but a stronger one, on which to build a better future. I am continually adjusting my sails, looking for that perfect place to lay anchor, but perhaps I have already come full circle … only time will tell ; 0)
“I want to paint a picture with my poetry
I want to paint a new world with my art
I want to paint a dream and wrap it around you
I want to paint a wish of love and sew it in your heart.” - AP
Soundtrack : www.youtube.com/watch?v=41Hw48h4FGQ
THE FIRST THING I SEE – IMAGINARY FUTURE & KINA GRANNIS
Shattered dreams come back to haunt me
fragments of my life before
I brush away the painful memories
dash them to the wooden floor
they slip between the boards and then
falling deeper gather dust
I will leave them until I'm certain
when I need hope; when I can trust
the beatings of my heart to find me
wanting; yearning more and more
pick up the rhythm of those feelings
that I left withering behind closed doors
even from pain strength can be gathered
especially from pain I found my way
found the light deep within me
by letting go of those yesterdays
I watch the sun in the golden hour
seems to grow and glow so warm
I could stand here watching; waiting
until it sets and rises at dawn
inbetween I'll watch the stars
feel the darkness; search for Mars
night cloak me in your mysteries
tell me what's beyond the trees
can you hear me; feel me; touch me
whisper sweetness on your breath
like a Summer's breeze I'm waiting
for a chance to find what's left
build upon this small foundation
make it strong and make it last
create a future with you this time
erase the failings of the past
tiny shards of glass from pictures
cut through my deepening reverie
pull me back through time in motion
open my veins and let me bleed
those days are gone
those days are gone
the future's bright
I'm not alone
forever more
I'm not alone
at last
at last
I found the long way home.
- AP - Copyright © remains with and is the intellectual property of the author
Copyright © protected image please do not reproduce without permission
Original artwork by me