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June 25, 2015
Self-portrait / brick wall.
This is what trying to interact with humans after I perform feels like. There's something so deeply in the way, it's in my skin and it feels like everyone can see it. There's some degree of power that I as a performer have that I as a person absolutely do not. Put an instrument and a microphone and a trained degree of autopilot between us, and I might actually tell you something. Maybe more than I want to.
(Social) Anxiety is a real fucking thing. It usually comes with a lot of other flavors, and I suffer from a lot of them. Panic attacks are fucking terrifying, and if you've never experienced one, consider yourself lucky.
I don't know why in this world of self-flattering selfie culture I pick my worst moments of exhaustion, anxiety and self-loathing to document and share with people. I know as "a man" I'm not supposed to have any of those things. But here they fucking are.
If there's any lesson here, it's find something you can do despite any of those things and do it. Do it hard. You're going to need the strongest weapons you can find.
June 25, 2015
Self-portrait / brick wall.
This is what trying to interact with humans after I perform feels like. There's something so deeply in the way, it's in my skin and it feels like everyone can see it. There's some degree of power that I as a performer have that I as a person absolutely do not. Put an instrument and a microphone and a trained degree of autopilot between us, and I might actually tell you something. Maybe more than I want to.
(Social) Anxiety is a real fucking thing. It usually comes with a lot of other flavors, and I suffer from a lot of them. Panic attacks are fucking terrifying, and if you've never experienced one, consider yourself lucky.
I don't know why in this world of self-flattering selfie culture I pick my worst moments of exhaustion, anxiety and self-loathing to document and share with people. I know as "a man" I'm not supposed to have any of those things. But here they fucking are.
If there's any lesson here, it's find something you can do despite any of those things and do it. Do it hard. You're going to need the strongest weapons you can find.