Light Shining

In life we go through tough times, but if we stop and think about the good things in our lives, the inner light we might feel to be dull or burnt out, shines once more. I've been dealing with a lot of metal problems lately, which have been made worse by family and work.

 

I am not ashamed to admit that for half of my teenage years and all of my adult life I've been battling with anxiety disorder, depression, being bipolar and suicidal thoughts. I've never followed through on the worst of the issues, but so often I've felt alone and have shut down and withdrawn myself from everyone around me.

 

Since becoming a mum I haven't been able to do that like I did before I had my son because he depends on me... but lately it's been so very hard and I've felt like some people in my life don't understand how hard it is for me to put on my fake happy face most days.

 

There are people in my life though who don't let me shut down, my son being one, but he is unaware of the issues I battle with constantly. Two other are aware of what I deal with and they've been a driving force with me to stop me from shutting down and just collapsing into myself. I am so thankful and blessed for two of them; for my beloved man and my amazing friend who I call my Twinny.

 

With the help of the people who remind me every day I am wanted and loved... I've again found my light and I am happy to let it shine once more.

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