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Golitha Falls National Nature Reserve, Liskeard, Cornwall
I’ve held back on posting this image since the day I got back from Cornwall. It has special significance for me… not because its an awesome picture, capable of sweeping all before it in competitions, but just a moment in time and a state of mind. I know everyone has had a tough time over the last few years with Covid and lockdowns, followed by the global meltdown exacerbated by the war in Ukraine etc, etc. If we are truly honest with ourselves, most of us have gotten through the worst of the worst unscathed… those who have lost close loved ones or been bombed out of house and home might say ours are first world problems and they’d be right.
Still, everybody has their own personal stories to tell and life can drag you down at the most unexpected moments. I’m envious of those who can pick themselves up, dust themselves down and get on with life, unfortunately, I’m not one of them… I thought I was, but everyone has their breaking point. Mine came on the 6th September 2021 at 10:10am. Without going into all the detail, I put it down to a few things - the lockdowns, family health problems, legal battles and just for good measure – redundancy right in the middle of it all! I suffered a total breakdown resulting in severe anxiety and panic attacks that lasted for months and months. I can’t count the number of counselling sessions I had with Kathy over that time frame. I developed a scale - 10 down to 1 with 10 being the 6th September.
Recovery has been a very long road to travel with many ups and downs but the general trend (and no I haven’t done a spreadsheet on this) has been downwards towards 1. I’m only writing this now as the Cornwall trip was such a highlight for me last year and this very moment, sat on a fallen tree truck snapping away at the leaf covered rocks in the stream had such an uplifting happiness for me. But why three? I haven’t worked out what 1 or 2 means on my scale yet… I don’t think a lottery win would warrant that score as money truly doesn’t buy you happiness, but 3 is a very good day for me and I’m happy with that.
If you’re reading this and feel in a similar situation… yes, there IS light at the end of the tunnel, you will climb out of that pit of gloom. Speak to family and friends, it was the best thing I ever did.
Thanks too all those that helped.
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Golitha Falls National Nature Reserve, Liskeard, Cornwall
I’ve held back on posting this image since the day I got back from Cornwall. It has special significance for me… not because its an awesome picture, capable of sweeping all before it in competitions, but just a moment in time and a state of mind. I know everyone has had a tough time over the last few years with Covid and lockdowns, followed by the global meltdown exacerbated by the war in Ukraine etc, etc. If we are truly honest with ourselves, most of us have gotten through the worst of the worst unscathed… those who have lost close loved ones or been bombed out of house and home might say ours are first world problems and they’d be right.
Still, everybody has their own personal stories to tell and life can drag you down at the most unexpected moments. I’m envious of those who can pick themselves up, dust themselves down and get on with life, unfortunately, I’m not one of them… I thought I was, but everyone has their breaking point. Mine came on the 6th September 2021 at 10:10am. Without going into all the detail, I put it down to a few things - the lockdowns, family health problems, legal battles and just for good measure – redundancy right in the middle of it all! I suffered a total breakdown resulting in severe anxiety and panic attacks that lasted for months and months. I can’t count the number of counselling sessions I had with Kathy over that time frame. I developed a scale - 10 down to 1 with 10 being the 6th September.
Recovery has been a very long road to travel with many ups and downs but the general trend (and no I haven’t done a spreadsheet on this) has been downwards towards 1. I’m only writing this now as the Cornwall trip was such a highlight for me last year and this very moment, sat on a fallen tree truck snapping away at the leaf covered rocks in the stream had such an uplifting happiness for me. But why three? I haven’t worked out what 1 or 2 means on my scale yet… I don’t think a lottery win would warrant that score as money truly doesn’t buy you happiness, but 3 is a very good day for me and I’m happy with that.
If you’re reading this and feel in a similar situation… yes, there IS light at the end of the tunnel, you will climb out of that pit of gloom. Speak to family and friends, it was the best thing I ever did.
Thanks too all those that helped.