stupidity

Since you left, I have known a lot of places I wanted to take you and see you laugh there. I've known a lot of songs I wanted to dedicate to you and hear you sing in the car. I've had very beautiful moments where the only thing I thought about was how much I would have liked to call you and tell you. And I believe that love sometimes takes a long time to go and there is nothing wrong with that; sometimes the only thing that remains is to keep remembering fondly until all the love is gone, until there is not even the slightest desire to see that smile again. It hurts to think of everything without you, I don't want to look for you or see you any more, I can't. I have got used to knowing nothing about you and I will let you go little by little...that's all I can do for me.

And it feels really stupid when this doesn't disappear while everything else goes on. And it feels so stupid when you see it.

I don't think I'm made for one world or the other because for me it's all so different so difficult, I hope that in a few years time something good will come out of this pain, and that I will be able to understand much more than what I perhaps didn't understand before. The fact remains, that people are capable of moving on. I am not.

Done