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'Anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome'. I have anxiety that is when I blow things up out of proportion, and worry about every little problem. What comes along with anxiety, is having panic attacks. For me, there is no set time that they last for. Even though I have had only had a couple, but they have not been pleasant. A 'panic attack is a sudden feeling of acute disabling anxiety'. When I experience one, I start to lose sight of reality, and I make things so much worse than they really are. I take short, fast breaths, I start crying, and I feel as if I am choking on my own thoughts. In my photos, I wanted to go through what panic attacks are like for me, and portray what it is like with water.

 

I chose to keep these photos in black and white, to block out unnecessary colors, and show how my perception changes. I had my younger brother lay in a bath tub filled with water, and symbolize what I go through during a panic attack, and with anxiety. My younger brother represents me struggling, and the water represents anxiety/a panic attack. The first photo represents how I start to feel uneasy, and start to overthink. I wanted this photo to be a little shaky so that I could represent how my perception starts to change. The second, third, and fourth photo show how I start to get lost in my thoughts, and the disorder is taking ahold of me. They also show how I am trying to breath, but I cannot quite catch my breath. The last photo represents me giving up almost, or trying to calm down while I am still having a panic attack. I like how my series turned out, and I was hoping to communicate what it is like for me when I deal with a panic attack, and anxiety.

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