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'Anxiety is a feeling of worry, nervousness, or unease, typically about an imminent event or something with an uncertain outcome'. I have anxiety that is basically blowing things up out of proportion, and worrying about every little thing possible. What comes along with anxiety, is having a panic attack. For me, there is no set time that they last for. I have only had a couple, but they have not been pleasant. A 'panic attack is a sudden feeling of acute disabling anxiety'. When I experience one, I start to lose sight of reality, and I make things so much worse than they really are. I take short, fast breaths, I start crying, and I feel as if I am choking on my own thoughts. In my photos, I wanted to go through what panic attacks are like for me, and portray what it is like with water.

 

I chose to keep these photos in black and white, to block out unnecessary colors, and show how my perception changes. I had my younger brother lay in a bath tub filled with water, and symbolize what I go through during a panic attack, and with anxiety. My younger brother represents me struggling, and the water represents anxiety/a panic attack. The first photo represents how I start to feel uneasy, and start to overthink. I wanted this photo to be a little shaky so that I could represent how my perception starts to change. The second, third, and fourth photo show how I start to get lost in my thoughts, and the disorder is taking ahold of me. They also show how I am trying to breath, but I cannot quite catch my breath. The last photo represents me giving up almost, or trying to calm down while I am still having a panic attack. I like how my series turned out, and I was hoping to communicate what it is like for me when I deal with a panic attack, and anxiety.

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