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Calling it Quits
I have been fighting with running skyrim on my PC for three years straight and after spending hundreds of dollars on a better video card and millions and millions of hours modding/tweaking/troubleshooting, I'm about to call it quits on Skyrim.
I have literally looked through every article there is on this game involving performance, followed every guide, tested every tweak. I know more now about Skyrim and it's flaws than I ever had anticipated, and after all that, yet another savegame has fallen to corruption only 20 hours in. I can't even try to comprehend what went wrong at this point. I stripped my game of all mods scripted and unscripted except for the unofficial patches, used what I presumed to be were safe ini tweaks, spent weeks looking for a performance enb and managed to get it stable after learning through months of trial and error with my enblocal to get it there. And after all this, once again, my game crashes everytime I load a new cell now. I have SMIM but everything is optimized and all textures are 1k only. I have looked at so many guides like step and through wikis and followed the specifications to the last nitty gritty detail, but regardless Skyrim won't work for me.
I so so wanted to really be immersed in this game, to be able to play a game I loved but would still look nice enough to feel immersive, but I don't think that is really possible anymore. I can run literally any other computer game out there with ultra graphics and no crashes. I make 6k illustrations for a living on photoshop with a thousand layers running smooth as silk, but no matter what I do I can't run Skyrim.
I'm not sure if this is really a request for help; I know others here on flickr have had similar situations and managed to (hopefully) get their game in order, but I'm not sure if I can even find it possible to try anymore. Just thinking of trying to play the game again is giving me anxiety.
Anyway, tldr; Verdant is as good as I can make it anyway, so I don't think my absence will be a big loss to the community, but I will still always feel bitterness towards this game, and towards my inability to do anything to fix it.
Calling it Quits
I have been fighting with running skyrim on my PC for three years straight and after spending hundreds of dollars on a better video card and millions and millions of hours modding/tweaking/troubleshooting, I'm about to call it quits on Skyrim.
I have literally looked through every article there is on this game involving performance, followed every guide, tested every tweak. I know more now about Skyrim and it's flaws than I ever had anticipated, and after all that, yet another savegame has fallen to corruption only 20 hours in. I can't even try to comprehend what went wrong at this point. I stripped my game of all mods scripted and unscripted except for the unofficial patches, used what I presumed to be were safe ini tweaks, spent weeks looking for a performance enb and managed to get it stable after learning through months of trial and error with my enblocal to get it there. And after all this, once again, my game crashes everytime I load a new cell now. I have SMIM but everything is optimized and all textures are 1k only. I have looked at so many guides like step and through wikis and followed the specifications to the last nitty gritty detail, but regardless Skyrim won't work for me.
I so so wanted to really be immersed in this game, to be able to play a game I loved but would still look nice enough to feel immersive, but I don't think that is really possible anymore. I can run literally any other computer game out there with ultra graphics and no crashes. I make 6k illustrations for a living on photoshop with a thousand layers running smooth as silk, but no matter what I do I can't run Skyrim.
I'm not sure if this is really a request for help; I know others here on flickr have had similar situations and managed to (hopefully) get their game in order, but I'm not sure if I can even find it possible to try anymore. Just thinking of trying to play the game again is giving me anxiety.
Anyway, tldr; Verdant is as good as I can make it anyway, so I don't think my absence will be a big loss to the community, but I will still always feel bitterness towards this game, and towards my inability to do anything to fix it.