I'm bad at being good and now I'm over it

Two years sober blogging a whiskey bar, the existential dread is setting in big time. 4773 days (13 years) Later... RL me stares at the screen watching Flit's AO loop and wondering what I even am doing here at 2:49AM on a Sunday night fighting the urge to sleep because it's the only time that it's quiet in my head.

 

Perhaps it was the juice that fueled my drive to create, to chase digital validation of some kind... everything used to be more exciting maybe or my ego's taking a hit and I'm starting to look back at time and money I may have been wasting.

 

I've put down the guns because they disgust me now. I'm tired of being cramped up in space and people certainly don't need any more thirst traps or photos of me playing with cats.

 

It might be time to fade into the ether friends... I'm certainly done trying too hard. <3

 

♫ ♬ ♫ ♪ ♩ UPSAHL - Good Girl Era

 

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[ kunst ] - Anuket Septum Ring

[ kunst ] - Emma signet rings

[ kunst ] - Joint

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