Emily Dozois
everything's made to be broken
Day 66
Named after the lyrics of "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls.
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I am in an AP photography class this year and for my final portfolio I need to hand in a series of images with a common theme. I was talking about this with my photography teacher a few months ago and he suggested that I do a series of self portraits that represent my health and what it feels like to be sick. It had honestly never occurred to me that other people wanted to know more so I was intrigued, and I created this photo that night from some pictures that I had never edited.
Some of you who know me already know this, but I know that most of you don't so I will fill you in:
I am diagnosed as a severe chronic asthmatic, but I have gone through a multitude of tests throughout my life trying to find an answer that makes sense to explain the difficulties I have with my breathing. Every four weeks I go to the hospital and have a tube inserted into my a port-a-cath in my side to go through methylprednisone treatments for three days, as well as taking many harsh medications on a daily basis. This photo was taken in July, when I was hospitalized because my "asthma" has been steadily getting worse for a while now and it got to the point where I couldn't control it at home. No one knows why I sometimes have flare-ups like that, but I do.
I don't let my health define me. I would hate to be seen as someone who takes advantage of their "excuse" or "reason" to get out of working. I have a part-time job, I try to never stay home from school, and I have pursued my love for photography with every spare second that I have.
The reason I waited so long to post this photo is because I want to be seen the way I always have been: as the girl who takes pictures. I don't want to be seen as "the sick kid". I pour all my energy into my friends and my family and my photography, and I don't want my accomplishments to be overshadowed by something that I can't control.
This is a part of me, and that's why it's important to share this as a photo in my self portrait project, but it doesn't define who I am.
I am defined by the things that I accomplish with the life that I was given, and I try to do the best that I can under the circumstances.
I think I'll let the photo speak for itself now.
:)
everything's made to be broken
Day 66
Named after the lyrics of "Iris" by the Goo Goo Dolls.
And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
I am in an AP photography class this year and for my final portfolio I need to hand in a series of images with a common theme. I was talking about this with my photography teacher a few months ago and he suggested that I do a series of self portraits that represent my health and what it feels like to be sick. It had honestly never occurred to me that other people wanted to know more so I was intrigued, and I created this photo that night from some pictures that I had never edited.
Some of you who know me already know this, but I know that most of you don't so I will fill you in:
I am diagnosed as a severe chronic asthmatic, but I have gone through a multitude of tests throughout my life trying to find an answer that makes sense to explain the difficulties I have with my breathing. Every four weeks I go to the hospital and have a tube inserted into my a port-a-cath in my side to go through methylprednisone treatments for three days, as well as taking many harsh medications on a daily basis. This photo was taken in July, when I was hospitalized because my "asthma" has been steadily getting worse for a while now and it got to the point where I couldn't control it at home. No one knows why I sometimes have flare-ups like that, but I do.
I don't let my health define me. I would hate to be seen as someone who takes advantage of their "excuse" or "reason" to get out of working. I have a part-time job, I try to never stay home from school, and I have pursued my love for photography with every spare second that I have.
The reason I waited so long to post this photo is because I want to be seen the way I always have been: as the girl who takes pictures. I don't want to be seen as "the sick kid". I pour all my energy into my friends and my family and my photography, and I don't want my accomplishments to be overshadowed by something that I can't control.
This is a part of me, and that's why it's important to share this as a photo in my self portrait project, but it doesn't define who I am.
I am defined by the things that I accomplish with the life that I was given, and I try to do the best that I can under the circumstances.
I think I'll let the photo speak for itself now.
:)