Marci Ansen
Jan 2015-Jan 2020
Latest in my "five years apart" pics. Pic on the left was taken January 22, 2015 the one on the right on January 7 this year. Sorry, I couldn't get the days to match.
TBH, I really don't like the earlier one; I was struggling with my makeup, my wigs, my poses and expressions, even my outfit's not quite that great.
Though I did post it on Flickr, but only for Friends; though it got a couple of thousand views, but no comments or likes (hardly surprising).
During 2015, I did get better at this whole dressing thing, learning what worked for me, and figuring out a few hacks and shortcuts with makeup, plus which tools to use.
Though I also look at this (and also the many many many reject pics that I still have and will NEVER post) and think "who on earth was I kidding?".
For me, a big part of my trans identity is trying to look classy and elegant, and (most important in my eyes) not just an object of ridicule. I have this sort of dual thing going where I really don't want to look like a bloke in a dress, but at the same time I know I'm never going to pass (largely because I'm tall, love high heels, and "look-at-me" outfits) and I don't care. I guess I really just aim to be an attractive-looking gender-fluid human.
I'm vain enough to think that I'm starting to get there, so thank you so much to all the people who post such lovely comments, and invite me to post on groups with seriously gorgeous t-girls. That does so much for my ego and confidence.
I've sort of obsessively tried to improve my MU skills, watching Youtube tutorials, going for makeovers, and learning how to hide my (many) flaws and make the most of my few better attributes.
I aim to keep posting "five year" pics in the coming months, and I feel there are some real improvements that start to happen.
Also, I hope that if you're a tgirl struggling with her MU (which is the key, IMHO) outfits, looks and more, and wondering if you'll ever get a result you'll be happy with (though remember many many others won't be nearly so critical as you are of yourself!), that this can help you realise that practice and experimenting will get you there in the end.
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Marci
Jan 2015-Jan 2020
Latest in my "five years apart" pics. Pic on the left was taken January 22, 2015 the one on the right on January 7 this year. Sorry, I couldn't get the days to match.
TBH, I really don't like the earlier one; I was struggling with my makeup, my wigs, my poses and expressions, even my outfit's not quite that great.
Though I did post it on Flickr, but only for Friends; though it got a couple of thousand views, but no comments or likes (hardly surprising).
During 2015, I did get better at this whole dressing thing, learning what worked for me, and figuring out a few hacks and shortcuts with makeup, plus which tools to use.
Though I also look at this (and also the many many many reject pics that I still have and will NEVER post) and think "who on earth was I kidding?".
For me, a big part of my trans identity is trying to look classy and elegant, and (most important in my eyes) not just an object of ridicule. I have this sort of dual thing going where I really don't want to look like a bloke in a dress, but at the same time I know I'm never going to pass (largely because I'm tall, love high heels, and "look-at-me" outfits) and I don't care. I guess I really just aim to be an attractive-looking gender-fluid human.
I'm vain enough to think that I'm starting to get there, so thank you so much to all the people who post such lovely comments, and invite me to post on groups with seriously gorgeous t-girls. That does so much for my ego and confidence.
I've sort of obsessively tried to improve my MU skills, watching Youtube tutorials, going for makeovers, and learning how to hide my (many) flaws and make the most of my few better attributes.
I aim to keep posting "five year" pics in the coming months, and I feel there are some real improvements that start to happen.
Also, I hope that if you're a tgirl struggling with her MU (which is the key, IMHO) outfits, looks and more, and wondering if you'll ever get a result you'll be happy with (though remember many many others won't be nearly so critical as you are of yourself!), that this can help you realise that practice and experimenting will get you there in the end.
XX
Marci