I'm a man in his thirties who is being subjected to feminization by my "big sister."

Yes, I have girly thoughts and feelings and these niggling feminine curiosities that spin in my head. But, I wanted to suppress them, hide them and keep them for myself. My "big sister" has been pushing and prodding these thoughts to the forefront of my mind and body. I give an inch and she pushes me a mile. My natural submissiveness has led me to this point and now femininity is bursting at the seems from all the dark cervices of my mind and hiding spaces of my home into the bright light of the everyday.

Should I be calling out for help or maybe I should be calling out for spectators as this wave of pink crashes down all around me?