i have always been a photographer.

and i fear that i will never be a photographer.

i know how a camera works and what light does on the way to, through, and behind the lens and through the iris and shutter. but all i can hope to do with that knowledge is try to figure out the best way to point the camera at interesting people, places, and things.

i like being here. i look at your photos, and hope they teach me new ways to look at my own world inside the finder.

i am also very thankful for digital photography. for several years-long stretches in the last twenty years, i have voraciously devoured kodak color-process black and white films, only to finally collapse yet again under the cost and process of bringing fleeting images to permanence. but now, it's much easier.

with each new digital camera i get, i start off with a period of shooting like a cracked-out chimp to get used to the controls. after i get that out of my system and the controls have become more instinctive, a kind of a calm comes back over me, and i start to pay more attention to what the camera is pointed at. that is one of my favorite places to be.

additional: i recently got a hold of a mamiya 645 1000s and a transparency scanner. film: hell, yeah.