After living as a man for 58 years I'm finally on my way to my dream of becoming a woman. The road here has been a long one, at times winding down an unfamiliar path, at times a real uphill struggle and times, coasting easily downhill. I've listed my gender as “Female” because right now, that's where my head and heart are.

 

My life as a man has been good, but unfulfilled. My very first memory of wanting to be a girl was at about 4 or 5 years old. Unfortunately, life has to go on and not necessarily in the direction you have in mind.

 

Out of high school, married and with a beautiful daughter, I realized my gas station attendant pay wasn't going to cut it...so, I joined the Army as a Paratrooper and spent time in elite units such as the 82nd Airborne Division and 10th Special Forces Group. In this profession, I was not only a very masculine leader, I was also very committed to my men, my unit and my country, and excelled in everything I did.

 

Yes, my dream to be a soft, pretty, feminine woman has been a long time in coming and I have decided that now is that time. It's time for ME to live MY life for ME, NOT my kids, NOT my family, NOT those who I think are my friends but will disown me as soon as they find out of my plans. MY life and happiness are now IN MY HANDS and no one will ever again dictate to me WHAT MY HAPPINESS ENTAILS.

 

As life gives us dreams and opportunities, it also gives us friends who will support us, encourage us and believe in us. I'm happy to say I've found one of those friends. Her name is Mary and we met just a few days after my wife and I separated last August. Mary has been my rock and I will never be able to thank her enough for the support she's given me. Mary is that special lady who will be there for me, always, as I will for her. The kind of friend that will stand by you regardless of who you are, what you do or where your dreams take you.

 

My long awaited transition to womanhood has officially begun with my first laser hair removal session on March 29th, 2012, I had this done at womens Spa and the entire staff at the spa have treated me with dignity and respect and are giving me full support in my transition. The Spa offers a myriad of services that will help me in my path to womanhood and I'm tickled that the girls are all interested in being there with me throughout my transition.

 

The next step in my transition comes with my doctor appointment April 3rd where I'll ask for a consult to see a Gender Therapist. Years ago I wondered if this day would ever come. Now that it's here, I find it hard to believe that it's not a dream any more...my transition is actually happening.

 

I guess I didn't need to bore you with all this...but I'm just so happy!

 

Kristyn

 

---------UPDATE....April 27th, 2012-------------

 

I had my second laser hair removal treatment yesterday..and am happy with the results so far. While at the spa I had a consult and estimate for filler. Probably in July I'll be able to get filler in my lips to plump them up ('cause I've been told I aint got no lips...lol), and following my lips in a short period of time (as money allows) I'll get filler in my cheeks to make them more prominent. Haven't decided on Botox in my forehead though. That stuff kinda scares me.

 

Before I left the Spa, I received a professional makeover, matched colors to my face and ordered my new supply of La Bella Donna makeup. Was fun spending the afternoon being pampered. My GG friend Susan accompanied me and we had a really good time spending a girls afternoon out. I can't wait 'til the next time.

 

Total cost for filler and botox..before discounts is about $1800. Much cheaper to get results from a couple injections each year than the facial surgery I'd initially planned.

 

Also upcoming on May 8th (next week) is my first Gender Therapy session at the VA. I'm still pinching myself to make sure doing all this is really happening.

 

--------ANOTHER UPDATE - May 20, 2012--------

 

Well, I'm in the midwest now. I pulled out of Yuma on May 9th after dropping by the Spa to pick up my makeup and a quick makeover. Pulling out of Yuma, one has to drive thru the US Border Patrol check point. Yes, I did this as a girl this time...and couldn't believe the treatment received from the Border Patrol officer. I pulled up with my window down, he greeted me with "Good afternoon Ma'am", then waved me thru and said "have a nice afternoon". I had to think for a minute...did he just tell me to go? Did he not notice I was a guy dressed like a woman? Did I really pass as a woman? Damn, I did!! and have spend the majority of my time since I left Yuma...as a woman. DAMN it feels GOOD!!!!!

 

Arriving in Cincinnati, I dropped all my wife's stuff off with her..and made a whole bunch of room for Kristyns clothes and stuff in the fifth wheel. Much lighter now and getting better fuel mileage too! Yippee!!!

 

I've been able to stop and visit a few FetLife friends along the way. Had only chatted or emailed them before now. I can actually say I know them now. And in typical FetLife fashion, they are exactly who they said they were.

 

Thanks all.

 

From here, I'll run down I-75 and meet a new FetLife (Master) Friend in Kentucky. I've enjoyed our emails (actually, I look forward to getting his emails and enjoy reading and responding to them) and hope our first meet Wednesday goes just as well.

 

That's all from west central Indiana...

 

Kristyn (who's one happy lady!)

 

----------------Yet another UPDATE-----------------

 

I'm on my back to Yuma...and Oh how I love being a girl!!!!

 

I finally dug the camera out and bought a new tripod. The result?? Take a look at the pic's I've just added to my profile. Not too bad for a girl that's pushing 60, huh??