Aka: loving my anonimity

...stream of consciousness....incoherently.....you ain't seen nothing yet....I can't write a complete sentence or jot down a thought without these little things to my right.....................! Everyday I think about the state of denial that I perpetually live in.....some people are comfortable in their denial....I envy them.....most of the things I experience in my travel through life are like movie or story scenarios....always the worse...dark.....there's a very thin veil between reality and fantasy to me......one of the longest lasting events or concepts I dwell on the most is the line from "The green mile" John Coffey".....Mostly I'm tired of people being ugly to each other. I'm tired of all the pain I feel and hear in the world everyday. There's too much of it. It's like pieces of glass in my head all the time....they kill them with their love. with their love for each other. That's how it is, every day, all over the world...." ..........How screwed up is that?.......did I say that out loud?

“When childhood dies, its corpses are called adults and they enter society, one of the politer names of hell. That is why we dread children, even if we love them, they show us the state of our decay.”

Brian W. Aldiss

" ......everybody dies alone...."

Captain Malcolm Reynolds