You won't just find photographs on my Flickr; you will find my life, no holds barred. Laughter and joy, sorrow and quiet desperation. Love and friendship.

There are some random public pics from more current times, but I haven't really posted since mom died several years ago. Loving her, caring for her, changed me in so many ways. When she died I fulfilled my promise to travel to the end of the of the road with her, both my responsibility and my privilege. She taught me so much, and I am a better person for our time together. She is dancing all the time now, wearing impeccable makeup and watching over me. She gave me wings and told me to fly, and when i think I will fall she is always there. I love you mom.

My children grew up here. Dylan, now 31, survived a rare form of brain cancer not once, but four times in four years between 14 and 18 years old. Declared terminal with cancer #4, he said "No, maybe not yet." Eleven years later and still in remission he had an acute stroke April 30, 2019 caused by the radiation to his brain. He works daily to put the pieces back where they belong. Different, but the same, still famous for his smile, albeit a wee bit crooked now. His spirit is strong and the light still shines through him. The love and support from our Flickr friends saw us through some difficult times. Dylan is my soul and my best friend. Laine, now 26, is a strong, beautiful independent man. It's hard to describe Laine. A creative force in his own right, with his original music he weaves sound and light before your eyes and ears and captures your senses. He can play any instrument he decides he wants to. Watching his talent morph and grow; seeing him perform, never fails to take my breath away. I can't wait to see where his music takes him next! But he is so much more than a musician. He is someone you want on your side. He is a In some venues I am still known as "Laine's Mom" and that is ok with me! People say laine? I know Laine! He's awesome!" Laine is my heart, my inspiration, my vision, pushing me to stretch my boundaries and grow. I love them both so much.

I have Bipolar 1 with psychotic features, Seasonal Affective Disorder. while I've dealt with my PTSD, anxiety and random panic attacks rear their ugly heads sometimes. I take my meds, stay out of the hospital (with Dylan's help), and advocate advocate advocate! I will #BeThe1To. I will help #EndTheStigma. I will fight to #StopSuicide, and, if YOU can't find your way back to the light, I will sit with you in the dark. Depression lies.

We have the most amazing extended family and awesome group of friends. Scattered though we may be, we are joined by love. My xhusband and his family; his wife, her family... these are our family. and when we all get together, love and fun are both there.

For the people that i meet who cannot stay- our souls have touched. we will find each other again, some other world or life. we will all be there in the end.

I love you all.

"I found it is the small everyday deeds of ordinary folk that keep the darkness at bay... small acts of kindness and love." Gandolph, quote from The Hobbit.