There’s a moment when it all clicks, and I feel it every time.
It starts quietly — choosing a dress, sitting down with my makeup — and then something shifts. Mascara opens my eyes, lipstick pulls everything into focus, a wig settles and suddenly frames my face in a way that feels right. When I step into heels, my posture changes, my confidence rises, and I feel taller in myself, even before I move.
Hello, I'm Helene Barclay a man who occassionally spends time as a woman.
Becoming Helene fills me with energy. The clothes don’t just change how I look — they change how I feel. My shoulders soften, my movements become more deliberate, my smile comes more easily. There’s a real thrill in that transformation, a rush of recognising myself as feminine and feeling good about it. Really good.
What makes that feeling so powerful is that it’s real. I work with what I’ve got — my body, my face, my skin, exactly as they are. The joy comes from the effort: taking time with makeup, shaping my brows, shaving my legs, choosing clothes that flatter what’s already there, adjusting posture and mindset until everything aligns. I love that it’s something I do, something I live my way into.
I don’t want to disappear behind something unreal. I like seeing the humanity in Helene — the texture of skin, the small imperfections, the evidence of care and intention. That reality makes the confidence feel earned and deeply satisfying. When I catch my reflection and feel that spark — yes, this is me — it’s because I recognise myself, not an illusion.
I love the power of it. The way makeup sharpens my confidence. The way a dress can make me feel elegant, playful, or boldly sensual depending on the day. There’s joy in knowing I’ve taken the time, made the effort, and arrived somewhere that feels affirming and alive.
When Helene is fully there, I feel radiant. Not perfect, not untouchable — but confident, warm, and present. The excitement isn’t just about how I look, it’s about how at ease I feel in my body, how free I feel to enjoy being feminine without holding back.
Photography becomes part of that confidence. I feel expressive, playful, sometimes a little daring. One image leads to another because I’m enjoying myself. I’m enjoying being her. There’s a glow to it, a momentum that carries through the whole moment.
Helene lifts me. She makes me stand taller, smile wider, feel more connected to myself. The makeup, the clothes, the heels — they don’t disguise me. They amplify something that’s already there.
And when it all comes together — when I feel amazing as a woman — that confidence is intoxicating in the best way. It stays with me long after the heels come off, a warm reminder of how good it feels to work with reality, care for myself, and let myself shine.
I also speak openly about these feelings in my videos, both here and on YouTube: www.youtube.com/user/TGTVHelene. Talking freely and openly is the most wonderful release — it lets my female self breathe, move, and exist in her own right.
I always welcome conversation about being transgender or exploring one’s feminine self. It’s something far too lovely not to talk about. 💋
I can be e-mailed directly on: helene_barcay@yahoo.co.uk
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A lovely lady who is sexy and stylish with some great photos. Sandra xxx
Worry ye not Helene you’re a real stunner just gain that confidence and strut your stuff. ...xx
Hi Helene, In my mind, you are remarkable for being the only trans woman I know who had the courage and smarts to video her first very steps as a woman out in public. I didn't even think to take a camera my first time, much less actually document my adventure speaking and looking at he camera. I would have been a sh… Read more
Hi Helene, In my mind, you are remarkable for being the only trans woman I know who had the courage and smarts to video her first very steps as a woman out in public. I didn't even think to take a camera my first time, much less actually document my adventure speaking and looking at he camera. I would have been a shaking, sobbing wreck! I can't seem to find that very first video of yours as you go grocery shopping, so I wish you would put your momentous occasions into a special folder. You've remained my hero ever since for your eloquence and intelligence in speaking about this affliction or special gift we all share. All I know is that you're a special gift to our community!!! Much love, Danielle
Read lessHelene is beautiful 😻 with awesome gorgeous sexy beautiful body 😍😘
I have been a Transvestite most of my life and share the experiences that you have expressed it is something that never leaves you and always returns even through long absences. I have come to terms with it and learned to embrace it because I feel so good and relaxed dressed as Fiona and I know it will never leave me… Read more
I have been a Transvestite most of my life and share the experiences that you have expressed it is something that never leaves you and always returns even through long absences. I have come to terms with it and learned to embrace it because I feel so good and relaxed dressed as Fiona and I know it will never leave me. Your bogs are very true to life and it is a journey that can bring immense pleasure and frustration at the same time.
Read lessYou are so very beautiful and gorgeous love your lovely outfits very much I love to dress up in lovely ladies clothing anytime at home in private love Pete ❤️❤️💋💋
Stunning and wonderful woman xxx Susan
Helene was one of several sources of hope and inspiration at times when, due to family commitments, financial restrictions as well as a cart load of guilt I was able allow myself to steadily develop my relationship with my alter ego Clare. For this I am thankful that in my personal life now have the opportunity to exp… Read more
Helene was one of several sources of hope and inspiration at times when, due to family commitments, financial restrictions as well as a cart load of guilt I was able allow myself to steadily develop my relationship with my alter ego Clare. For this I am thankful that in my personal life now have the opportunity to explore this side of myself, (I'm down to a bucket full of guilt as the time of writing). Thank you Helene Clare x
Read lessHello Helene May I say I envey you that you came to the conclusion that you did on your video. I think what your girlfriend did is very unforgiveable and mean you have nothing to be ashamed of. May I add your a very beautiful and sexy lady when dressed up, I was born to early for dressing up which I regreted all my lif… Read more
Hello Helene May I say I envey you that you came to the conclusion that you did on your video. I think what your girlfriend did is very unforgiveable and mean you have nothing to be ashamed of. May I add your a very beautiful and sexy lady when dressed up, I was born to early for dressing up which I regreted all my life , ive mention about dressing to my with and sexy lingerie but she doesnt understand you seem like a nice person so all I can say to you enjoy dressing whilst you can Rose hugs and kissess be who you want to be then you will never regret it xxxx
Read lessYou look so very beautiful loving your outfits very much you have got a very beautiful body I love to wear ladies clothing anytime at home I love to wear leather and pleather clothing I love how it feels and looks I wear a size 12-14 I have just bought a new pair of shiny long boots I just love to dress up anytime I am… Read more
You look so very beautiful loving your outfits very much you have got a very beautiful body I love to wear ladies clothing anytime at home I love to wear leather and pleather clothing I love how it feels and looks I wear a size 12-14 I have just bought a new pair of shiny long boots I just love to dress up anytime I am at home
Read lessHi Helene, I have alway's enjoyed looking at and listening to your photo's & video's; you always look so glamorous and sound so sensible and grounded as Helene. You certainly seem to have fully embraced the new you and look to be so natural and comfortable in this guise and I wish you the very best for the future. I wi… Read more
Hi Helene, I have alway's enjoyed looking at and listening to your photo's & video's; you always look so glamorous and sound so sensible and grounded as Helene. You certainly seem to have fully embraced the new you and look to be so natural and comfortable in this guise and I wish you the very best for the future. I will always look to you for my inspiration and set you as a benchmark for me to aspire to, although I know I will fall somewhat short, but will keep trying! Take care Natalie x
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