I'm nuts! An artist with a linebacker's soul. An athlete with aesthetic sensibilities. I sometimes feel I am at the right game with the wrong equipment. Like a fighter pilot, I see the peripheral and that's why it is hard to focus, easily bored, but constantly searching. My dreams always have tornados in them which I escape from by hiding in buildings that seem familiar. I am always best when I am preparing for a disaster. I don't know why. I am exhausted by it all. I am constantly late except for my deadlines. Adrenaline drives me through my own mental and emotional roadblocks. Easily frustrated at my inability to paint what I feel or play the sounds I hear in my head. Sometimes I wish I was dead... but not yet... there's still too much to do!