June 2014 - How I began
Several people have asked the big question of how I started. Put simply, it grew with me. The details are vague at first, but telling. Before I was four I always tried to play with the girls, however they pushed me away because I was a boy. Visiting my cousins' house often involved dressing up games for all of us and I would choose a dress or skirt. It was on one of these occasions that I first became aware of how offended the adults were, how bad I was and the importance of keeping my secret. As I became a teenager my father, with the best of intentions, started giving me lessons on being more manly, which seemed successful.
One day when I was about fifteen, a news item about someone called a transsexual came on the car radio. I asked my dad what it meant and he explained. How can I explain my reaction? Have you ever seen a flash of lightning so bright that it burns a long-lasting image on your eye? I can still see that street and where each of us sat at that very instant. This was my revelation, although there was no opportunity to act upon it and I already knew it was an evil idea.
Then I met a lovely girl, doted on her and took this as evidence that I was cured. Thus I never told her before the wedding, since I was absolutely determined that my past was behind me and could be forgotten. I think you know how well that worked.
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January 2014 - The year has started better than I could have imagined
The dreaded deed is done. I have come out to my wife and she has responded unbelievably well. I cannot say she is pleased, but she recognises it is just another part of me that she never knew, yet was always there. I feel I have jumped into the void and my parachute has successfully opened.
Of course, I spent many hours carefully packing that parachute. I planned what to say with honesty but keeping it short and simple to begin with. There is much more to be said, however I did not want to overwhelm her with detail while she was still comprehending the main facts. I set out the essential news and invited questions. After asking for a few clarifications, her first expression of opinion was this: "It must have been a terrible burden."
I was expecting anger, resentment, rejection, maybe despair of what would become of her marriage, or possibly some ultimatum, or all of these. Instead her first reaction was to share my stress! Can there be any greater love? At that instant I knew we still had a future together, which is an astounding relief.
People have often claimed that she must at least suspect something of what has been going on. For the record, it is now clear this was a total surprise.
She has asked me to seek professional advice, in case anything can be done. I think I know the answer to this after so many years, but of course my wife does not, so I am happy to comply if it helps her. Meanwhile I shall continue to keep my head down low, lest I upset what has begun so well. Most importantly, I will not misinterpret a little basic acceptance as a licence to do all sorts of tgirl stuff. That would be a huge mistake and I honestly have no desire to do most of that stuff anyway. We have made an excellent beginning, but remember it is only the beginning so continue to be careful and respect each other.
Let me repeat myself because I still find it incredible. My wife's first reaction was to understand my burden. It must be love and I love her most dearly for this.
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December 2013 - This year was good, and that is bad
Looking back on 2013 I can see I have achieved a lot. I have continued my first tentative steps out in public from 2012. I have spent time with dear friends, both man and tgirl. I have stayed in a hotel for a weekend en femme. I have frequently used the ladies room. I have shopped en femme, tried on clothing and bought clothes and make up. I have never had the slightest problem.
These are things I never dreamed I would attempt. I am delighted by them and feel proud of myself for showing courage. All this is great -- and that makes it very bad for me.
As many of you will be aware, I exist in the closet. Nobody knows, not even my wife, which is a horrible breach of trust on my part. I am at heart an honest person and I have handled my deceit so far by avoiding thinking about it. This strategy has worked for me over the years because I dressed seldom and in absolute privacy. Dressing was an isolated incident, not a habit, and never made contact with the real world so I was able to persuade myself that it was only a brief lapse.
It is now evident that I have moved far beyond such limitations. I have moved into the real world with real friendships; my female identity is beginning to live in reality and that reality is beginning to affect my life. Finally I admit this is unsupportable. I cannot continue to appear as a woman and keep it secret from someone who should be closest to me.
A promise
I will carefully reveal my secret to my wife in a few days. Having announced it here, I am committed to doing so. There are sure to be consequences, possibly dire consequences. In preparation, I have closed several accounts and I am now locking the doors on my Flickr account by severely restricting access. I would hate to delete my account or lose all my photos so I am hiding everything from public view. If you are not on my list of friends you will not be able to find me or see me. I still wish to maintain contact with many people who have come to know me here so I am also prepared to widen my friends list hugely. If you count yourself a friend of mine, but I have missed the chance to add you, please send me a message. I will then either friend you or block you, depending on my opinion of you.
To be continued (I hope).
Emma
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Emma is Allways a beautiful Lady. A real dream of a beautiful wife.... I really like her style.
Hi Emma...you are an inspiration...❤
I could dwell on your wonderful portfolio, your beautiful looks and gorgeous figure however, your profile is so wonderfully detailed and refreshingly honest (wish I had taken the same path with my now ex wife) and what a wonderful wife you obviously have. To have taken what must have been a fairly shattering revelation… Read more
I could dwell on your wonderful portfolio, your beautiful looks and gorgeous figure however, your profile is so wonderfully detailed and refreshingly honest (wish I had taken the same path with my now ex wife) and what a wonderful wife you obviously have. To have taken what must have been a fairly shattering revelation so well and to share the burden you had been carrying says a great deal about your wife (and marriage.) Take care of each other. x
Read lessI've been a fan of you for many seasons and thinking you were pretty much free to express this side of you. Now after reading your bio and the journey you've been on with an unsuspecting spouse, I am astounded at your ability and taste to sytle yourself like a refined female. Georgeous in your appearance and fierce in … Read more
I've been a fan of you for many seasons and thinking you were pretty much free to express this side of you. Now after reading your bio and the journey you've been on with an unsuspecting spouse, I am astounded at your ability and taste to sytle yourself like a refined female. Georgeous in your appearance and fierce in how well you carry yourself. Bravo and hopefully evolved so your can share this wonderful side of who you are with your spouse.
Read lessEmma, you are an icon in beauty.
Emma you a beautiful Lady.
I love Emma's pics. She looks so real it's sometimes hard to believe she's not a genetic woman. And also like many others I am completely jealous of her fantastic legs!
Wow you look Stunning in every picture, you look So Beautiful a perfect Real Woman XXX All my Love from Sharnia XXX
A beautiful lady with a lovely figure elegant and sophisticated looking what more can you say about a very lovely Emma.❤️
Emma is a total inspiration and joy, her bio about her father is very similar to my own experience.. Emma is an elegant role model! Lovely Emma update! xxxx March 2020 and she is even hotter than last year xxxxx kisses beautiful
I want to deeply thank you for the opportunity to catch a glimpse of your beauty and affectionate rebel attitude that appears in your photos, it is wonderful to observe the combination of beauty, pose, attitude at the level of a muse of inspiration.
Such a classically elegant and beautiful Lady. Together with your truly feminine looks you also have a figure and legs I could only pray for in a different void; looking at your pics makes me question my continuing to dress en femme! OK, I will continue but will use the excuse that I aspire to be as beautiful as you (… Read more
Such a classically elegant and beautiful Lady. Together with your truly feminine looks you also have a figure and legs I could only pray for in a different void; looking at your pics makes me question my continuing to dress en femme! OK, I will continue but will use the excuse that I aspire to be as beautiful as you (knowing full well that is an unachievable aspiration)....
Read lessI am new to flickr and all I can say is WOW. You are an inspiration. Your style is what I want. Every one of your outfits looks fantastic and makes me want to go out and buy it! Thank you.
As I've said many times before when commenting on her posts I find it difficult to believe she's not a genetic woman. And I'm incredibly jealous of her fantastic legs!
You have a beautiful style and class that is adorable.
What a stunningly beautiful t-gurl Emma is. She has style and the looks that turns heads. Her pictures take your breathe away, so elegant, feminine and amazing. I do hope everything has worked out with your wife, I do hope she has seen how perfect you look in your femme mode. Thanks for sharing your pictures.
As long as you are happy and have a good circle of family and friends, then enjoy yourself and stick 2 fingers up to people to those who don't like it.
There are not too many trans women that I follow on flickr, but I have long made an exception for Emma. She is one of the most astoundingly versatile and consistently attractive photo subjects I have seen (cis or trans). Even with the diversity of looks, settings - everything really! - she always makes it look easy, … Read more
There are not too many trans women that I follow on flickr, but I have long made an exception for Emma. She is one of the most astoundingly versatile and consistently attractive photo subjects I have seen (cis or trans). Even with the diversity of looks, settings - everything really! - she always makes it look easy, natural and beautiful. Her photo page is one of the very best things to happen to flickr. I look forward to seeing what she has to offer in 2019 and beyond!
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hi,we have not been surfing much lately but we did come across you again...we e mailed u back and forth maybe 5 months ago...good to see u are still out there being worlds best and prettiest model....something has changed in you...you are even more pretty than before somehow???..you are a very pretty woman...h… Read more
hi,we have not been surfing much lately but we did come across you again...we e mailed u back and forth maybe 5 months ago...good to see u are still out there being worlds best and prettiest model....something has changed in you...you are even more pretty than before somehow???..you are a very pretty woman...have fun...be careful...traci..USA
Read lessIn The 60's, Lynn Redgrave was one of England's most dynamic of actresses. She, and her older sister Vanessa, were a part of The other British Invasion; The one involving the British actresses that invaded Hollywood during The 60's. Emma Ross reminds me of Lynn Redgrave, and has the glamor to prove it. I wonder how g… Read more
In The 60's, Lynn Redgrave was one of England's most dynamic of actresses. She, and her older sister Vanessa, were a part of The other British Invasion; The one involving the British actresses that invaded Hollywood during The 60's. Emma Ross reminds me of Lynn Redgrave, and has the glamor to prove it. I wonder how glamorous Ms. Ross can truly be; Only time will tell. Emma, Keep calm, and glamor on!
Read lessEmma is so very stylish, conservative, suave, sexy, but most of all feminine not only in dress but expression. So wonderful to have a tastefully elegant lady amoung our Flickr friends. She puts the High in Highlands.
When I first laid eyes on Emma Ross I had a feeling she was special. She drives your desires to new heights and gives you a big reason to run for the land of the Great Highland bagpipes. Emma certainly deserves to be treated with the finer things in life as any lady should. With every superb new photo Emma posts she pr… Read more
When I first laid eyes on Emma Ross I had a feeling she was special. She drives your desires to new heights and gives you a big reason to run for the land of the Great Highland bagpipes. Emma certainly deserves to be treated with the finer things in life as any lady should. With every superb new photo Emma posts she proves to her fans that she is the Queen of Elegance!! Sometimes I glare over Emma's pics for awhile........so when I go to bed I have 'Heavenly Dreams' of her......but enough of my weakness. Hey everybody, listen to me and do yourself a favor and check out Scotland's hottest asset, Emma Ross. She's wonderful, has a fantastic figure, is classy and elegant, is someone you could have a thoughtful conversation with, enticingly sinful, and a true beauty. Emma, sweetie, you can always be my wicked enchantress any day of the week!
Read lessEmma is one very sensual and beautiful girl who has perfected her femininity and sensuality in a manner most genetic girls can only hope to achieve. She's beautiful and breathtaking in every way. I'm pleased to have her as a friend and I'd be honored to have an opportunity to capture all her grace, beauty, and sensual… Read more
Emma is one very sensual and beautiful girl who has perfected her femininity and sensuality in a manner most genetic girls can only hope to achieve. She's beautiful and breathtaking in every way. I'm pleased to have her as a friend and I'd be honored to have an opportunity to capture all her grace, beauty, and sensuality with my camera. I'll be honored if sometime in the future I have an opportunity to do photos for her. Til then, I'll savor every beautiful photo of her as well as her friendship here on Flickr's Hugs Dwayne
Read lessi've known emma for a little while now , i was at first taken by her sheer beauty , then charmed into friendship by her radiant personality & gracious mannerisms , always the perfect lady , i've never heard or read a bad word about anybody from her , even some more unsavory ' admirers ' i've seen on her comments she ha… Read more
i've known emma for a little while now , i was at first taken by her sheer beauty , then charmed into friendship by her radiant personality & gracious mannerisms , always the perfect lady , i've never heard or read a bad word about anybody from her , even some more unsavory ' admirers ' i've seen on her comments she has returned comments to them in a gracious manner befitting a princess . emma , i'd just like you to know you're an inspiration to me to be the best gurl i can be . hugs pauline x
Read lessI think Emma must be from another planet. Never on this Earth have I seen such a creature. Seriously Emma,you are a vision of grace and beauty that my simple vocabulary just can't describe....Zoya
I've thought long about this, but in the end it's pretty simple..."I just love this girl". Emma is such a elegant and sweet lady, and I'm just so fortunate to have her as a friend. Just Christina
Hi Emma. I just wanted to say that your photos are amazing. Very classy and feminine. Take care Tina x
Emma has been a bit of a star to me and helped me get my head around this flickr thingie She makes the effort to send personal messages and positive comments I now count Emma as a good friend What could be more perfect! Lots of appreciation and hugs for your kindness and encouragement Emma Antoinette ; }xxxXXXX
Emma: Thank you so much for being my friend! I admire your style in femininity! You carry yourself in such a manner that inspires me, and I'm certain many other girls, to approach womanhood in an elegant and tasteful way! Being a woman is so much more than wearing the clothing! I wish you the best in your endeavors .… Read more
Emma: Thank you so much for being my friend! I admire your style in femininity! You carry yourself in such a manner that inspires me, and I'm certain many other girls, to approach womanhood in an elegant and tasteful way! Being a woman is so much more than wearing the clothing! I wish you the best in your endeavors .....today and alway! Kudos! hugs, Celeste
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