About Me:.

I’m a HUGE believer in the “do unto others as they would do unto you” thing. I would like to believe that Karma is real…

I'm a M2F woman who is NOT attracted to guys, so I guess I would describe myself as a lesbian... with male hardware installed.

I tend to be analytical (I over-think everything), but my creative side (music, art and photography) balances it out.

My other interests are just as diverse. (I love cities but also need quite time in snow-covered woods or at the beach… I love meeting new people yet prefer sometimes to be alone…)

If you would like to read about my ongoing, transgender journey, please visit: http://www.deeburke.blogspot.com

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About my Pictures:

The photos that I have posted here are ONLY posted as a showing of solidarity for others who feel that they were born into the wrong sex and/or body.

It's REALLY sad that I need to say this but I've seen far too many of my "sisters" being re-posted on transgender and/or transvestite websites, when they did not approve their photos being added and they do not profit from the re-distribution... so the legal stuff: ALL PICTURES ON MY PHOTOSTREAM ARE COPY-WRITTEN and are NOT ALLOWED TO BE RE-POSTED and/or RE-USED IN ANY FORM WITHOUT MY WRITTEN CONSENT. Feel free to "favorite" them on Flickr, by clicking the "favorite" button, but you are not allowed to copy then re-post them (thus removing my name/link).

As a photographer, I have COPY-WRITTEN all of my works and will seek legal action where applicable. As an IT specialist, I will seek other means of retribution where legal remedies are not able to be enforced (for both myself and my other transgender friends who have photos posted here).

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My Story:

Although born male, I've always felt like a girl... I remember sneaking into my sister’s closet when I was around 4 years old and trying on her bathing suits, shorts, tops, etc… I liked how pretty they made me feel.

Unfortunately, I was taught that being anything but heterosexual was a bad/evil thing. I can recall many instances of my farther yelling at me / belittling me whenever I did anything girlie or showed ANY compassion towards others… and recall many instances of him trying to force me into his idea of “manliness”… even after my mom divorced him (when I was 7).

After the divorce, I began slipping into girlie clothes EVERY DAY after school. I also frequently skipped school just so I could be a girl for the day!

When I was 8 or 9, I set up a “cubby” in our attic where I could go at night and put on girlie outfits, play with dolls and everything else I wouldn’t dare do in front of my mom or siblings.

My mom suspected something was “wrong” at some point because when I was 14, she said she was going out one night, but was really hiding in her room, trying to “catch me in the act”. When she saw me sneaking into her room to borrow a bra, she began to scream hysterically for over an hour… no words… just screaming… over and over… My older brother finally calmed her down… and I’m not sure if she ever told him… but she refused to talk to me about it… and… after that night, nothing was ever said about it again… Needless to say, I have never been able to discuss my feminine side with my family (considering their reaction that day) until recently.

I moved out at an early age and was finally able to allow myself to dress, feel and be who I wanted to be… without having to feel guilty about being who I am.

I was a long-haired musician with a wide array of friends who accepted me for who I was. I became more self-confident, which allowed me to wear almost anything when I went out, which was usually something that I purchased from the woman’s department, including makeup (although I think my friends would have drawn the line if I showed up in a dress).

Fast forward to now: For reasons of stupidity (taking bad advice) I bought a house in a “less-than-tolerant city”... Far too close to family and associates who prefer to gossip and/or joke about cross-dressing or transitioning rather than trying to find out why we need to do it…

Although I live as a “girl” 24/7, I was forced to fake the guy role during the day (no make-up, no “over-tweezing”, only wearing female clothing that looks like menswear, etc). Except for a few Halloween or costume parties, I never ventured from the house anymore in full girlie mode...

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8/18/12:

Thanks to somewhat recent postings from Jo, Stacy, Jazz and others, I began to believe that -- if you truly felt -- throughout your ENTIRE life -- that you were born into the wrong gender… you can travel the long, hard road to becoming on the outside… who you truly are on the inside.

That being said, I began minor doses of hormones (taking just enough that it won’t be too noticeable) and I am hoping to undergo full HRT as soon as I’m able to.

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12/28/12:

HRT was going very well, but I had to cut back for the time being. I loved the body changes and the emotional elation, but the boobs (Yea! I got boobs!) were becoming a bit noticeable.

It’s kind of funny… when I was a long haired musician in my early 20’s I was sometimes offended when people said, “Hello ladies” or “Excuse me Mam”… but now I feel SO GOOD when someone says that! I’m getting a LOT more of that lately!

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12/01/15:

Thank you to everyone here for being so supportive over the past 3 years. It has aided me greatly in becoming self-confident with who I truly am, in displaying my girlie side (as you probably noticed from the pics), and in everyday issues.

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2/16/18:

As you can tell from the recent pics, I now care more about my daily happiness than what shallow people may think or say.

Although I still dress somewhat "tom-girl" around town and at work, (no make-up or high-heels) that's quickly changing and I'm planing on selling my house within 5 years and moving to a more to a more "T-friendly" place. Any suggestions on the location?

I've finally come out to my sister... but as far as others go... let them figure it out for themselves! I'm becoming more feminine every day... and people are slowly accepting that, despite my increasing femininity, I'm still the same person they loved before.

Be you. Be happy.

Dee