All of these pics are old, I haven't dressed in 4-5 years. I put these up because many of you don't like when people just fave pics of you without some content of the individual that is doing the faving. I often miss the feelings of dressing and taking pictures and going out dolled up, because it is fun. I'm even expressing now my feeling of loss, by re-posting, because I have been having withdraws. I don't know if I will ever fall back into it or not, but I'm trying not to. I am a Christian and I believe that we can all be converted in spirit a little at a time. I think we sometimes believe as being in the transgender spectrum that we need change the behavior which has caused much pain, stress, anxiety all at once, and if cannot all at once then it must mean we can not change all, so that means we must go forward and change the outside to match what we feel is in the inside, which is not true. I remember many times thinking am I really a female spirit stuck in a male body, did God do this to me to torture my soul or am I just a feminine man who loves women's stuff. Jesus Christ knows we are imperfect and that is why he gave us the repentance process to use during our lifetimes. We can repent tomorrow if we dressed up today and feel that maybe we shouldn't have. We may never completely overcome it in this lifetime but we can make strides at it and we can try to be as Christ-like as we can. We purge our clothing, makeup, jewelry and pictures because we feel ashamed only to buy again later all that we lost. I have done it a few times always being upset later that all of it was gone. I thought about a scripture which eluded my understanding for years until recently. Jesus taught that for things of this nature and other addicting behaviors for them to come out of us it must be done with fasting and prayer. I thought only a few times of fasting and praying would do the trick and I would be through with it, but it has taken a lifetime for that "devil" to come out of me, though its always trying get back in. Jesus says to his disciples its because of your unbelief. He then says if you have faith of a mustard seed you can move a mountain. (Matthew 17:19-20) "Sisters" I don't know if we have the faith, but if we ask the Lord to help our unbelief as the father who had the son with the dumb spirit. (Mark 9: 17-29). This may sound cruel but just maybe we all have deaf and dumb spirits. I want everyone to know that if you desire to share your thoughts with me after reading I would like to hear from you. If you desire help I would like to try to help in whatever way I can. Jennifer