I'm a certified "NUT"... (LOL)

1/12/24: I know I MIRACULOUSLY still look good now (at age 55), but I indisputably looked incredible in my ECTV 'Glory Days' (5 pics in from top left). THE WAY I LOOKED WASN'T WHAT I WAS ON THE INSIDE. In case you're 'wondering', a hell of a lot of people (to this day) get pissed off to no end when your behavior doesn't match your outside appearance. When I look like this THERE IS NO FORGIVENESS OF ME-like I can't even fk up, put my foot in my mouth, etc without certain people (like somebody I fairly RECENTLY* spent years TRULY BELIEVING GENUINELY LIKED ME AND VIEWED ME AS A FRIEND TO THE SAME DEGREE I FELT TOWARDS THIS PERSON OVER WHOM I STILL CRY FROM TIME TO TIME) taking it personally.

*In case you're wondering, this person's unexpected, shocking, HARSH REJECTION of me that caused me to WISELY never go near this person again PSYCHOLOGICALLY FKD ME UP EVEN MORE THAN HAD PREVIOUSLY BEEN THE CASE: I never, ever, ever, expect to be liked by anybody. When it came to my blossoming friendship (or so I thought) with this person, I forced myself to trust-to smother down my usual feelings AND ENDED UP YET THE FK AGAIN BURNED-ENDED UP YET THE FK AGAIN BURNED-ENDED UP YET THE FK AGAIN BURNED (and helplessly in tears I thankfully managed to hide until I was safely outside & far away)...

(I just NEED to be safely with my Joe where I will definitely continue to entertain my worldwide fans FROM A DISTANCE...)

1/19/24

I CAN'T FKING BELIEVE I LOOKED LIKE THAT AND THAT CHEAP, CRUEL, SELFISH IN & OUT OF BED, PRICK DONALD DID WHAT HE DID TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RAGE-FURY-HATRED-RAGE-FURY-HATRED-RAGE-FURY-HATRED!!!!

I CAN'T FKING BELIEVE I LOOKED LIKE THAT AND THAT CHEAP, CRUEL, SELFISH IN & OUT OF BED, PRICK DONALD DID WHAT HE DID TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RAGE-FURY-HATRED-RAGE-FURY-HATRED-RAGE-FURY-HATRED!!!!

I CAN'T FKING BELIEVE I LOOKED LIKE THAT AND THAT CHEAP, CRUEL, SELFISH IN & OUT OF BED, PRICK DONALD DID WHAT HE DID TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RAGE-FURY-HATRED-RAGE-FURY-HATRED-RAGE-FURY-HATRED!!!!

I CAN'T FKING BELIEVE I LOOKED LIKE THAT AND THAT CHEAP, CRUEL, SELFISH IN & OUT OF BED, PRICK DONALD DID WHAT HE DID TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RAGE-FURY-HATRED-RAGE-FURY-HATRED-RAGE-FURY-HATRED!!!!

I CAN'T FKING BELIEVE I LOOKED LIKE THAT AND THAT CHEAP, CRUEL, SELFISH IN & OUT OF BED, PRICK DONALD DID WHAT HE DID TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

RAGE-FURY-HATRED-RAGE-FURY-HATRED-RAGE-FURY-HATRED!!!!

I CAN'T FKING BELIEVE I LOOKED LIKE THAT AND THAT CHEAP, CRUEL, SELFISH IN & OUT OF BED, PRICK DONALD DID WHAT HE DID TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I CAN'T FKING BELIEVE I LOOKED LIKE THAT AND THAT CHEAP, CRUEL, SELFISH IN & OUT OF BED, PRICK DONALD DID WHAT HE DID TO ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!