CD wanting to blend is as a female.

Latest update, Flickr made me remove many of my pictures because I do not have a pro account. Sorry I had to do that. I also removed many face picture for privacy. I have pictures I can provide on request to friends I know. Thank you for your understanding and the many comments you have made in my pictures.

Rebuilding from my previous site, somehow I was lost access to the other one ......

Trying to refine my look to be as fem as possible. Next phase is to go out fully dressed and be one of the girls.

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Big milestone Monday September 12, 2016. That is the day my wife found out I am CD. In a way I am very very relieved. In another way am scared she is going to leave me. I suppose only time will tell.

Sept 15, 2016

My wife and I have had several good talks over the last few weeks. The day after she found all my clothes she asked I move them into our closet. She was afraid if anyone found them in my office they would question why they were there. I looked at that as a positive sign. At least she did not ask me to through them out.

Sept 17, 2016

We talked more. She had done some research on line and found that if she asked me to stop and throw out all my clothes statically the marriage would end. She found that most CD would not stop. She wanted to know all the standard questions about why I did it, did I want a sex change, did I have sex with men or women, etc. I told know to all, because I have not. I told her the standard answer why I like female clothes. They make me feel good and it is fun to try different looks and go out and pass as female.

Oct 3, 2016

Had a very bad night. She said she could not handle my CD and thought we would end up in divorce. I told her I would stop because our marriage came first. She was ok with that.

Oct 4, 2016

She said she could not stand to have the clothes I had been hiding from her in the house. I had to remove them. We talked a long time. I asked her if there was leeway in letting me dress, maybe just at home when she was not there, or once a month, or just on overnight trips in the hotel, not go out in public anymore, etc. We talked and talked and she said if I would remove ALL of my female clothes she would buy me one item latter, no time table. I agreed.

I got up and started putting all my things in trash bags. We agreed I would take them to Goodwill that evening. I put everything in trash bags I thought they would take. Most everything came from there in first place. Some of the items I did not think they would take, like makeup, wigs, breast forms, panties, etc. I put them in a separate trash bag and put it in the pile the trash company. As it turned out this was a real good move on my part. She said latter she was happy surprised that I did right then and there.

Oct 5, 2016

Came home to pack for a three day two night trip for work. This trip had been planned for a year. This is one of my normal work trips I would typically dress in the evening and go out to malls and stores and be me. But, this time I did not have anything to take and I promised my wife I would not buy anything or do anything while i was gone. In our previous conversation we discussed if I should go at all. I wanted her to trust me. We both agreed I would go and would not do anything.

So I walk in to pack around 3:00 and she told me she had something to show me. She open the bedroom door and there on the bed was three new dresses and everything to go with them, I mean everything. The bed was overflowing with everything I needed and wanted. She purchased three dress, bras, panties, 3" heels, makeup carrying case, all new. She also included some of her makeup and accessories. She had them all laid out on each dress they went with. She also had on the bed one of my wigs, one set of breast forms and some of my control top, and padded panties. She told me about each item, even talking about what makeup I had been using and why she purchased for me what she did for me. We reviewed how to apply some of it. I was a lose for words. Then she should me some the sexy nighties and bras she purchased for herself. She has never done that before. This was a dream come true.

She did say she was not sure why she did it but she was surprised and happy I removed all my stuff so fast. She also said she still was not ready for me to start dressing and could not have any of it yet. I was so disappointed at that time. However her doing this so soon and buying more than just one item was a great start, I thought. We talked more about the items on the bed as I picked them up and touched each of them. I said the wig she picked out of the trash bag was not the one I normally would wear. I also said I had two pairs of breast forms and used both of them a lot depending on what I was going to wear. To my surprise she let me have both wigs and both pair of breast forms. I thought I was heaven. We even got out everything else in the trash bag that she had not picked out and pulled out some more stockings for me to have.

Oct 7, 2016

Came home from my trip, She said she put everything up and would get them if and when she was ready for me to wear it. We will see when and if she opens up to my dressing at some level. I am uploading all my pictures to get them off my hard drive and store them here. More updates as things change. My dream has always been my wife knows about my CD. Second is that she would fully support me and go shopping with me. One down one to go. Wish me luck....

October 24, 2016

Had many long nights talking. She is really having a rough time dealing with this. She is trying to work through it so I still see it as a good thing.

She bought me two pair of stockings and some boy panties, very silky. The stockings are high quality and very silky. I wore them to bed with her one night. I wore the boy panties every night. She said I can wear the boy panties and or stockings to bed anytime I want. She can not except my CD yet just trying to give me something. She also said the three outfits she got me a few weeks ago I can wear only at home and only when she is not there.

In her state of mind she is giving up a lot to allow me to dress some and still be married. I fully understand that and hope she excepts me better in the future and things settle down. The next big test is the day I have time alone at home. I hope she comes home that day ok with knowing I had been dressed while she was out.

April 24, 2017

Feel like I should do an update. I hope someone really reads this. I enjoy reading everyone's profile, hope at least one person likes mine.

FIRST, I HAVE SAID IT BEFORE DO NOT FRIEND ME OR ASK ME TO BE A FRIEND IF YOU DO NOT HAVE AT LEAST A FEW PICTURES AND DIFFERENTLY A PROFILE.

Ok enough of that. The update after my wife found out about Tammy is I still adhere to agreement. I am totally true to our arrangement and have not done anything behind her back. Nor do I want to.

The issue I am having now is I so need more. I want to get some new things, dress, heels, and stockings or pantyhose. My desire to dress has not slowed down. My worry is it will not until I return to were I was before she found out. I had many outfits, full makeup kit, and was dressing and going out. I do not want to start hiding it again.

Last October/November was the last time we talked about my CD. I have worn a few things to bed as we agreed I could. She has trouble having sex with me when I wear my night gown. She will will when I wear my stockings and panties, sometimes. I think it is time to bring it back up again.

When we made the first agreement she said that was it and would not allow any more. I am hope that with the time that has passed and I have held to the agreement she might let me have more.

I thing small steps are best rather than ask for everything I really want/need or else. I still hold true to do everything I need to do to hold our marriage together. I just hope I can do that.

One pair of stockings I have now has a run in them. She should understand that and let me get new pair. I am thinking about opening up the conversation with I have a run in my stockings along with I have held to everything we agreed to. If that goes well then I think I am going to ask for a new outfit/dress or skirt suit. I would really like for her to go with me and help me shop for a new outfit. Which if she agrees to it, I think she will go with me to make sure that is all I get.

Sept 2017 Maybe time for an update, not that anyone reads profiles. If you do read it send me a short note. It has been a year now since I told my wife everything. Most of the time we have not talked about it. Three months she was sick so I did not bring it up and some family issues took some time away too. I wanted to but did not know how to bring it up without causing a fight. Also as noted above, like many at first I went too fast. From my research I found it really does takes years to make changes like I want in our relationship.

About a month ago I was able to bring it up, which had bothered me a lot that we had not talked. I did not know what she was thinking. Then again a week later and then again last week. I wanted to know what she thought and that she knew I was following our agreement. I thought that would be a positive for me. We had a good talk although it did not last long each time. She admitted seeing the bag of things in my closet still bothered her and she thought it would be better if I hid them more. Before she knew, whenever I dressed I made sure everything was put back just like it was, old habit. One day I thought I do not have to hide it anymore so I was not careful how I put it back I wanted her know I was still dressing.

Like before when she suggested something I did it and did it right then. An hour later everything was moved up and out view. She commented the next day she noticed I did it wroth out question, maybe another positive for me?

Then last week I asked her if I could get a new pair of stockings as one of mine had a run in them. I asked her if it was ok I get them, or did she want to do it, or should we go together (my first choice). I always dreamed of the day we would go together to buy me things. She said she would have to think about it. Then two days I came home from work and found three pair of new stockings in my closet. I thanked her. She said she did not like doing it but did. She also said they did not have the original shade these were the ones they had. Not sure what that should mean. I took it as a positive thing because when I told her I wanted to replace them she asked why because she thought I had several pairs. I had three so I was down to two. So she bought me three for some reason.

I asked her that night if I could start wearing stockings to bed again. She first said yes then said to wait a little while. I have worn them to bed several times in the last year.

I will wait to see what happens next. I want to talk more than we have the past year but not everyday or week.

End of year update: I thought it might be time for an update. Wish I had a pro account. I can not pay for it s maybe someone will donate it to me. Call it a late Christmas gift (with know strings attached, of course). The update is not a lot has changed in my relationship, that is the sad part. We have not talked much about my CD. Not that I need to talk about it everyday. I think it stills makes her mad and she she still will not except any more than our original agreement, which I did agree too. My hope, as stated before, was she would loosen up a little as time passed and she sees the world did not end because I have a feminine side. I am still very happy she now knows and I do not have to hide it. It was worth her finding out. At the time I really needed to tell her.

After the new year I am going to try to talk to her more about CD. I hate to bring it up and start a fight or up-set her in any way. However I feel the need. Does make since?

I feel I made a little progress with her when I asked to replace some stockings that had a run in them. One, it told her I was wearing them and two, because I wanted another set (have 2) I was not stopping. I did tell her a little over a month ago I had not had much time to dress and wanted a few more things to wear. Her response to that was no response. So from that it looks like I am not gaining any support in any way. Wish I knew a way to bring it up without up-setting her.

Wish me luck in the new year and thank you everyone that comments on my pictures and reads this profile. I ikow a lot of you are reading this.

Thought maybe it was time for an update. It is now 2019 and not much has changed. I am staying in the guide lines we agreed to. Even though it has been difficult. I really want, may need, some more feminine time. I would like to have a few new things to wear, especial new heels. So for now I want to hold my marriage together as has been my number on goal. I am happy she knows and I do not have to hide that part anymore. I am not sorry I told her. I am hopping that with the time that has passed and she sees nothing has change as it relates to our relationship or who I am, she would be more open to agree to more. We will see.

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