As a crossdresser i love the feeling of pantyhose or stockings against my legs and a pair of high heels on my feet. I like to incase my body in female attire and am more inclined to the sensual side.

I consider myself transgender, even tho’ that label doesn’t quite reflect all the nuances of my gender identity… at this late stage in life, having both male and female feelings is complicated. While I accept who I am, I also accept who I’ve become….and so for me transitioning is not on the table.

I’ve been “dressing up” since I was maybe 12. My story is similar to many others. Feeling like there was something wrong with me, purge, after purge, always feeling guilty about who I was. Late in life, well in my 40s, I just gave up and accepted myself for who I was, and that was a great relief. The millstone was cut off and I rose to the surface of the water and took a gasping breath of life.

I’ve been on here (Flickr) since going over the hump of life. Previously I was known as Sheila X, but I bumped into a lady who I, so to speak, fell head over heels for. If only she could have been my gf/mistress… but that was not to be. So I took her name and try to emulate her look. In my pics I present myself as an amalgamation of this lady and myself, with a little more bosom than she, but not by much.

The “fakes” are done by my friend Michelle and she has done fabulous work with a sexy and artistic flair, which I dearly love. She has created the fantasy person I wish I could be.

As far as my pics, they all have some adjustments. I have 2 goals. 1) to look appealing, “eye candy” as much as possible. BUT this requires some photo manipulations. Nothing too dramatic, a tuck here and there, some background blur, and removing distracting objects, maybe a different background location. This to make the real me look more feminine and not so boring. 2) to hide my identity. The world has gotten crazier. For a while I thought society was becoming accepting. BUT the far left, went over the top with demands that pushed too far and now the right is pushing back harder than ever. Where once I was considered mentally sick. Then came acceptance in society, but now I’m back to sick…. Politics aside, all that matters is: I accept myself and I feel good about that.

I don’t use AI but I do use lots of “appliances” to get the visual effect. This man frame does not at all look curvy, beer belly aside, LOL. I wear about 20 extra pounds of silicone to get the feminine body effect. It works well during the cooler season… so I always am in anticipation of fall to start. Not that I don’t dress-up during summer, but it can be brutal. I like going outside and from a distance I don’t look too bad… basically I pass. Up close, not so much; being tall, 5-11 without heels (and I love heels), voice is gruff (but I’m working on it) and face that is better seen thru beer goggles. (Really not that bad, but it’s not young any more).

I want to say thanks to those who stop by and admire. And as any girl… love it when you leave a comment… although comments aren’t necessary. I can tell what I folks like by the number of visits and favs. Thanks to all… I love you.