It may come as a surprise to many people, but I never wanted to be a woman. I was an only child, so no sister influence, and I never wanted any of my mother's things. I was a tall, slender, smooth, soft male who discovered I loved feminizing myself. I was not forced, it all came from inside and felt natural. A little lipstick, some lace panties, high heels, the more I tried, the more I enjoyed it.

By my mid 20's I had quite a 'package' put together. Blow dried blonde hair, full makeup with frosted lipstick, big earrings, a little white blouse, cut-off shorts, panty hose and 3" Candy slides. I looked hot and felt even hotter. Wanted to grab my purse, go out and show it off!! Not as a girl, but as a screaming fag? queer? fairy? girly boy? All I knew is that it was the real me and I loved it.

But I didn't. Put it "in the closet" and went on with a 'normal' life. Life has treated me VERY well.

Six years ago I decided to try going total "fem", hair to heels, lipstick to lace. Discovered I loved wearing dresses. Once again, did not want to "pass" as a woman, just wanted to be me, a totally feminized male and a Very sensual one.

Started dating men who knew exactly what I was and liked it.

In turn, they made me feel fabulous by completing my feminization by putting me on my back and making love to me. I love getting laid like a girl, even though I never have an orgasm. Realized you don't have to be a girl to enjoy 'being a girl' and you don't have to be gay to enjoy 'being gay'.

Might be crazy, but it sure is fun. All this and I am still married and otherwise lead a 'normal' life.