Everything has it's time - I love the feel of luxurious fabrics, dresses that flow and tight skirts - otherwise I am designing and programming parallel systems.

I like cute, pretty, elegant, sexy and conservative photos.

I don't like overt exposure, I do like genuine sexual energy though.

Also, oddly, I am completely straight - as in I really enjoy being, talking and laughing with women. Maybe because I grew up with more than 2 sisters and 0 brothers.

I also find women that like other women, and some men that like other men easier to talk to - but I have no interest in having non-technical discussions with hetero-men.

What am I doing? I have come to the conclusion that there are 2 options. Either I should have been born a woman (as in my Sex and sex drive are hetero-male but my "gender" is female. Or, I like to externalize the feminine side of myself - as in certain fabrics really look and feel good - regardless of gender (or is it the dress and shoes or the woman). Don't know because there is also a highly competitive testosterone side when that I would miss - but that interferes with the reflective soft side that I think both genders actually have. (this was only a 5 min expose').

In the end I try to add more to the human race than I take out - this is why my "real" work is so important - to advance the state of the species - (as in I try to be focused like Christopher Johnsons' 20 year task at fixing the mothership in District 9)