Update 23november 2012

after my trip to Portugal this summer I discovered that my fears about not fitting into the gay forest outside my closet were without foundations.

I felt totally at home for the first time in ages, so I came back, built a brickwall between me and the closet and, since I was in the right forest, I started looking for the right tree.

First attempt went so and so (good sex, miss that... But the rest too demandind... Already too many demandind people in my life to add a new one to the list... Being Dumped has been a blessing in disguise), Then sidetracked by the longest and most annoying bout of migrain ever dealt with (still dealing with but getting better).

So if the Mayas are wrong, next year will be the year I'll finally find my special "tree" and that'll be another major turning point... Or I'll Explore the forest one tree (or more) at a time...

I have so much life to catch up

born in December 21 1968.

Freshly out of the closet and working to overcome my shyness and reach out for people.

I struggled for most of my life with my sexuality. Looking back I should have known from the start I wasn't wired the same way people around me were, and probably I did and denied it in a futile attempt to conform.

Then I came to terms with the whole thing and with a big effort pushed open the doors of the closed, just to discover that the closet may: a) have revolving doors that keep hitting my face. or it may open on a walk in closet.

b) it's in the middle of nowhere.

Right now I feel more or less where i was 5 years ago, still isolated from the outside world and still unable to reach out to people.

5 years ago I wanted a meaningful relationship and sex, but i wasn't (and I'm not ye) ready for them, so I take a step back and go for "learning to open up to people; find people to talk with and building friendships..."

The rest, I hope... will come along in due time...