Im a 44yr old male with a lifelong desire to become a realtime sissified submissive servant.

I need to go from my longterm fantasy and needs into a whole new reality, one where I can finally stop hiding behind my lifelong curse to be seen as a tough guy by others, and pretending to be one to please others. When in reality im a full blown sissy slut submissive craving total humiliation for my owners benefit, and to be exposed here and everywhere else real and cyber of what I am, and what I was! HELP!

I am yearning to come out and start living out as the real me inside my shell, im eager to experience so many things I keep hidden inside due to my fears of how others will react, resulting in my total humiliation, but the funny thing is one of my biggest desires is to experience the humilation I fear happening!

I need someone assertive and creative enough to break my fears and guide me into total transformation, I originally sought out only a female top, then my urges grew heavier towards submitting to, or serving alongside TS/TG CD's