***Dec 16 2022***

 

I would like to report all has gone well since my last update. However that isn't true at all. My life long health problems have gotten worse and relationships with everyone around me have died, in some cases been reborn, and in some cases died again. I am so incredibly lonely. I really am adrift in life. HOWEVER in that I am not alone. Through my background experiences I have begun working in the trans community for an LGBTQ+ organization. A great many trans people live isolated and lonely lives and I find meaningful work connecting with them, and connecting them to resources in and around my community.

  

***May 18 2017***

 

I have come to terms with me being transgendered. Not so much an "ah-ha" moment, but a "duh" moment. It was always more than crossdressing to me, but I just kept saying it was simply crossdressing. I get gendered as female out and about in the world 9 out of 10 times and it's the moments that I am gendered as male that take me back in surprise. I started a new job in a totally different career. A very traditionally female career. I have not changed my name legally but go by a feminine name at work. This all has taken me by surprise. I would have never guessed this would be my life. I am hopeful all works out.

 

***Jan, 29 2017***

 

Many new changes in my life. My whole in person look is going more feminine again and moving away from Androgyny. I really don't have a reason other than it is somehow a product of the things going on in my life.

  

***May, 5 2016***

 

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***May 13 2012***

 

I have been asked why I consider myself bi-gendered or Dual Spirit. Well, my girlfriend is in therapy, I have gone with her a few times and I have learned a few things. It would seem that mental health professionals look at crossdressing as something people, mostly men, do for sexual excitement or arousal. It is considered a fetish. When Mara first started talking to her therapist, her therapist had the wrong idea about me. Mara has some issues relating to sex that she is trying to resolve and the therapist suggested we were not a good match if I was a crossdresser. After bringing me into a session and finding that I don’t get sexual excitement, arousal or pleasure from dressing en femme (as a female), she suggested that I am probably bi-gendered or some other form of transgendered. As I researched bi-gender, I realized it was true. I don’t identify as male or female exclusively all day long where a crossdresser might identify female when dressed as a female and identify male when dressed as a male. I identify myself as a blend of both male and female when I am dressed as male or when dressed as female. This also disclosed an idea I had read about when researching my ancestry, the Dual Spirit. A concept that many pre-Columbian North American people had about those individuals who see themselves as part male and part female.

 

***Dec. 29 2011***

 

After quitting crossdressing cold turkey as part of a strategy to get my life in order I find I do not have a desire to crossdress 99.9% of the time anymore and I can’t explain why. I still believe I am bi-gendered or dual spirit. I have been doing it since age 5 or so and I have always felt very strongly about it as if I was half boy and half girl in one body. My only reason I can guess is that the people around me accept me for who I am. I live and dress in an androgynous way and maybe because the people who have accepted me over time like me even this way, I feel I don’t have to balance the time I wear a suit and tie at work with time I wear a skirt or dress at home.

 

***Goodbye to near daily photo updates***

 

For those of you used to me posting photo update every few days, My Pro account expires December 23rd 2010 and working only part time and having not worked for most of the year I cannot afford to renew it. Thank you to all my fans and friends who have enjoyed my photos.

 

***About me***

 

Over 18 year of age. Over 21 years of age too.

 

Want to be my friend? It's easy... but read all of this page first!

 

flickr is an outlet. Do you know what you are plugged in for?

 

It seems like people join flickr to plug into an interest of theirs be it fashion, photography, clothes, shoes, hobbies or any other interest that can be shared. Before you judge others, ask yourself why you joined. No person's “jones” is better or worse than any other person's as long as it isn’t illegal or does not hurt anyone else. And with that...

 

***About me***

 

Hello, I am crossdresser or bi-gendered person who is now 30 years old! I am heterosexual. Flickr is another of my outlets for sharing crossdressing or being bi-gendered.

 

I am 5 feet 11 inches (180cm) tall and 135 pounds (61kg). I most of the time shave smooth unless I am being lazy.

I mostly dress casual, in jeans, pants, t-shirts. I am starting to love tights again, especially pattern tights or textured tights. I love casual shoes and flats. I hate high heels on anyone, even females!

  

***About crossdressing or being bi-gendered***

 

Crossdressing or being bi-gendered is not something I hid until landing a job as in a professional social work environment. I don't want to be a girl or wish I was a girl. I don’t get sexually aroused by dressing as a female. I don’t focus on undergarments, skirts or dresses. Most of my dressing is casual: Pants, jeans, shorts, t-shirts etc.

 

When I was very young the kids at school used to pick on me saying that I should have been a girl or telling (teasing) me I was a girl. I have since birth some unique health conditions that affected stature, strength and overall appearance so this went on till I graduated high school. But when I was young I thought maybe they were right. So I would dress in my sister's clothes at home. My parents never knew or they looked the other way. It stuck with me because they were kind of right I guess. I don't look like much of a man and when I was young I was often mistaken for a girl even in my everyday boy clothes.

 

***About my photos and interaction on flickr***

 

Go ahead and comment on my photos, just keep it clean on the photos anyone can see. The restricted photos can have adult comments.

 

I DON"T SHOW MY FACE. IT IS FINE IF YOU DO. I DON’T WANT TO READ OR HEAR COMMENTS ABOUT SHOWING MY FACE. YOU WILL BE BLOCKED.

 

This is the internet and I can't stop anyone from looking at my pictures but I WILL NOT add as a contact or friend anyone that does not share pictures, shares stolen pictures, shares pictures that are web samples or has no pictures that include the account owner.

 

IN OTHER WORDS HAVE SOME PICTURES OF YOURSELF IN YOUR PHOTOSTREAM OR DON’T EXPECT CONTACT FROM ME.

 

I have some pictures only friends can see but crossdressing isn't a sexual turn on for me so don't expect much.

 

***My flickr friends***

 

So if you want to be my friend you must send me a flickr mail and ask to be my friend because I can't read your mind!

 

Tip: It wouldn't hurt if you make me your friend first, even if you don't have any "friend" photos, it just makes you seem more sincere.

 

If I think we have similar interests I will friend you in return!