On February 21, 2009 I lost one person who always made me feel happy. She could always cheer me up when I was down and she knew all the right things to say for my life to brighten up. My life has always been the kind of life that no one knows about. I have secrets that I wouldn't tell the world, except for my friend. I trusted her with everthing. I laid all my fears and worries and depressions on her and she just took them in and kept a hold of them like they were a precious gift. She told me everything that was going on with her life and I always listened. She was the one person who I truly felt was a sister to me. She has now left this earth because of some dumbass guy and her parents and everone but myself. I was the only one to stand by her and when she couldn't take anymore, she took a knife to her chest and died in her room, forgetting all of her worries and burdens. Leaving them all behind in a depressed girl's heart and never again shall you hear me as I once was because never again shall I be the same. I am left in utter silence, wishing for it to be something different, but knowing it can never be such. And at the end, I say that I wish only that Kasandra can find a place where no more suffering is and she may be happy....for the first time.....

Nightmare

As I sit

Under the calm night sky,

I look up to

Find a moonless night.

It sends me back in time,

To the haunting tears

That scared me the most

The nights of last year.

I try to put the past behind

But it haunts me

In my mind.

The thoughts never leave

And my night terrors grow more.

The silent screams in my sleep

That no one knows about

Leave me breathless in the morning.

Unknown to others

Only kept to myself.

-A.J. Rodriquez

i wrote this song:

The Beast Within the Darkness

I stumbled upon a room

With other such things that did kill me.

And I walked into that room

And no one could hear or see me.

I felt like something was wrong,

Like something was holding me back.

I saw everything that night

And nothing was ever the same.

Blood was splattering across my face,

As I charged and entered the room.

My eyes were red with an evil glow

That sent my victims in fear.

I'm not a normal person.

I choose my own path.

If it kills me or if it doesn't,

I have to make my own decisions.

I have pray,

I have victims,

I have anger and hate!!!

You can't leave me alone

Or leave me to be

The person that I wanted to be.

I'm not a true maniac,

I'm not even close,

So dont confuse

With that category.

Everytime I think about it

I want to forget,

But the monster inside of me,

It still lives.......

The monster

Feeds on my soul,

Unleashing,

All to me, unknown.

The monster

Kills me deep inside,

Destroying

everything i hide.

My thoughts,

My dreams,

My everything,

My heart lies deep inside,

My home,

My love,

My friends,

My joy and happiness,

Its all taken away

by the beast that lives inside.......me.

The beast lurking inside.....me.

here is the wonderful poem L2 and I wrote......

The Distance Between

When you told me you were leaving

My heart couldn't find relief

And when my eyes saw you

walking away

I found I could never retrace

The steps that we took

And the pain that we booked

I wanted more than anything

to stop you

But when I came upon you

I just let you go

I didn't want to believe, baby

I miss you terribly,

When will you come back to me?

Everyday that passes by

seemed like an eturnity.

I saw your face wherever I looked,

the image never left my head,

It was eating my deep inside,.

The moments

felt like years to me,

and you were my everything.

You were my soul,

You were my heart,

You were the very thing I called myself,

and I lost everything......

The day you left me

" Do not be envious of one who is simply another peice of the puzzle, be intellegent and be yourself"- A.J. Rodriquez

TIME 4 A JOKE!!!!!

The FBI had an opening for an assassin. After all the background checks, interviews, and testing were done, there were 3 finalists. Two men and a woman. For the final test, the FBI agents took one of the men to a large metal door and handed him a gun.

"We must know that you will follow your instructions no matter what the circumstances. Inside the room you will find your wife sitting in a chair. Kill Her!"

The man said, "You can't be serious, I could never shoot my wife."

The agent said, "Then you're not the right man for this job. Take your wife and go home."

The second man was given the same instructions.

He took the gun and went into the room. All was quiet for about 5 minutes. The man came out with tears in his eyes, "I tried, but I can't kill my wife."

The agent said, "You don't have what it takes. Take your wife and go home."

Finally, it was the woman's turn. She was given the same instructions, to kill her husband. She took the gun and went into the room. Shots were heard, one after another. They heard screaming, crashing, banging on the walls. After a few minutes, all was quiet. The door opened slowly and there stood the woman. She wiped the sweat from her brow. "This gun is loaded with blanks" she said. "I had to beat him to death with the chair."

(. . . . . . SIGH. Funny yet terribly sad. u.u)

A girl and a guy were speeding over 100mph on a motorcycle

Girl- Slow down, I'm scared.

Guy- No, this is fun...

Girl- No it's not. Please, it's too scary!

Guy- Then tell me you love me.

Girl- I love you, now slow down...

Guy- I love you too. Now, give me a big hug.

-She gave him a big hug-

Guy- Can you take off my helmet and put it on; its bothering me?

In the newspaper the next day a motorcycle had crashed into a building because of break failure. Two people were on it only one survived. The truth was that halfway down the road the guy realized that the breaks were broken he didn't want the girl to know. Instead he had her hug him and tell him she loved him one last time. Then he had her put his helmet on so that she would live, even if it meant that he would die. If you would do the same for the person you love copy this in your profile

You Are 84% Evil

You're the most evil person you know.

The devil is even a little scared of you!

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