I am sissy in her 40. Divorced, and looking after my son bi weekly, but in weeks i am alone i would love to be controlled, pushed and guided by someone

I want to be honest and i have some nice on me and something not so nice. I dont want to ruin my life, I am pretty happy but you know there is sissy inside me and it is painfull when she cannot express herself. What i look for is get more balance. Admit more i am sissy, have some fun and also unleash some female feelings

I used to be a dominant male who wanted to have her girls in maid outfits but now i feel there is my payback time. Now i am maid.

There will be pointles and lie i want be super sissy girl 24/7 all the time because i have kid, partents, and work i really love but there is something made me feel lingerie is more suitable for me every morning i dress up.

True reason i wish to be a sissy under control is i love some aspects of being submisive

- I love being under control and supervised - Tasks .. some feeling i am on short leash

- I love being tricked forced and when there is mutal trust blackmailed. Agree terms and conditions i will not agree when i am horny, deprived or frustrated

- Desperate Housewife. I dont understand but feeling i am not good enough, i must agree being abused, humiliated, tricked turns me on.. Frankly no idea why, but i have urge to seduce my master/mistress but all it causes is to be more and more cheep slut

- Being exposed. Most of my outfits are sheer, transparent or peek a boo.. Even when i am dressed up, i am not covered enough

- Frustration, Deprivation, Behavioral modificaton. I am deeply sumbisive when i am sexually deprived. I am left without answer or contact and i need to continue with my tasks. Argue i am woman and instead to focus to my orgasm i am expected to focus to suck dildoes, use butt plugs and play with my nipples

- Tasks and dressing approval. I am lazy as man can be, or even more and assigned tasks, like house keeping sounds very exciting to me. And i am almost begging you to do this to me because i need it even from practical reasons. Also it will help me to slim down... I am leaving to your imagination what argument will be used, but i assure you arguments "slim down and tidy up house" are hard to beat regardles what tricks, strings or traps will be layed to me

- I have very strong fetsh to sheer outfits, maid dresses, ballerinas, lingerie, pvc and latex dresses, yes it turns me on, but there is 2nd layer of pleasure far behind to cheep horny. IT makes me very obedient when i am sexually deprived. It happened me once i was forced to dress in lingerie and do task even i dont wanted it. It made me cry but there was something about it.. some dark pleasure

- I love to please. If you like something and it is not on my not to do list, i will probably love to do so to please you, to seduce you. When you are down, feeling sad, i will love to make you nice again

- I have something not nice... I am not realy very young and not really very slim and not very nice

I am afraid to go out as female

I have very extensive works so some days i cannot submit

and the worst

I run away.. I dont know why, but sometimes i am hiding, arguing, bossy, but if you will be nice to me, i will go back and i believe there will be some punishments after of outfit or task modification

Who i am looking for.. Dominant male or female.. i dont care much. Males are more lingerie and dressess and Females are more about feelings.

I look for some who is inteligent, who will be maybe like demanding friend. Someone who will play on me like piano. Sometimes sweet and romantic, sometimes hard, sometimes filly. Being sissy means you are exposed, fragile and submisive and there will be good if you can use it for your and also mine pleasure, fun and whatever

Yes i am naive and dream about someone i will express i am sissy and who will be freiendly but also demanding and will catch me.

What i dream for

-Being encouraged to wear lingerie on some regular bases

-Being forced to do house chores tasks, maid tasks or maybe something beyond my imagination

-Being tricked to dress as slut or horny wife in the evenings to consume and enjoy my frustration,fragility

-Being tricked to be on short leash, respond nasty mails, be on Apple find my friends.

-Being tricked and froced to wear chastity belt and use butt plugs, dildoes and nippleclamps instead

-Being tricked into frilly sheer dresses but instead to enjoy prancing around is to adopt it as my formal wear and focus on other activities. Somehow when i look on myself and see what i have become turns me on

-Being forced to wear pvc or latex outfits.. not hazmats or something like it but something nice, shiny, sexy

-Being assigned to do house chores

-Slim down

-Instead of prancing in sexy dresses focusing to my climax to read woman magazines, focus on modesty, make up, cooking, poish nails

Thank you for reading and hope for mail from you.. Any kind of mail.. i am bit lonely so changed number in mail numbers allways made me smile

Kisses Linda