The first few days of staying in were somewhat interesting. I felt some kind of excitement at the prospect of not having to go anywhere for a few weeks. After that period of a few days, things began to sour. It was like the honeymoon period was over and i was faced with an intense sense of isolation. I do not live alone, but i felt alone. Not the good kind of alone where you have autonomy and you can just go anywhere. I was boxed in. Before i knew it, it had been three weeks. Almost a month without leaving my house.

As the weeks develop, there are more and more instances where i feel deja vu. The same experiences repeated. The same boxes, the same halls. It has been a strange experience to be this cooped up. I am getting used to it now, though. I must remain indoors with my father, he is in the danger zone so to speak. My brother and i must remain vigilant as to not expose him to the virus.

I have been taking long drives to see how the world looks now. Things are dead and it honestly fascinates me. I have always enjoyed abandoned spaces. This new situation we live in is not really abandoned, but it is close to it. My brother takes his dog for a walk twice a day. I very rarely leave the house. This sometimes depresses me but mostly i am at peace with my activity during the outbreak.

I have attempted to keep a semi-consistent journal of sorts of my thoughts during the outbreak. As i've stated earlier, i have been less productive than usual despite having much more time. I believe that it is a distinct possibility that i am more productive and motivated when i have less spare time. When the stakes are higher, i can more evenly manage work and free time.

The Stay at home order has been increased to may 15. This isolation will continue. I am almost glad, it's been nice not working. My job is pretty miserable and not having to go in has been incredible. I've gotten quite used to the quarantine, for better or worse. I think the SAH order will be stretched further but we will have to wait and see. As long as i have things to do, i'll be fine. I do miss my friends, though.