I'm a Bipolar Ambidextrous Gemini Phoenix stuck between awake and a dream.

I'm an avid traveler and addicted surfer who feels more at home on the road alone or at sea than anywhere I could ever be.

I lost my lust for life about 5 years back do to the tragic and untimely death of my mother. I lost the way & map; the “Why” through this tragic and unfortunate event. After about a year of severe loathing and self destruction I started to come around or at least pull myself out of it. I Realized that being orphaned for the second time had indeed left me alone without any real family. But it had freed me as well? I now had the opportunity to travel and surf and live out the dreams that being the son (Man Of The House) of a disabled widow had not afforded me. Threw my grief and lament my agonizing sorrow I found myself heading blindly into Costa Rica. Excited to finally really travel for surf I had bought a Olimpus 8010 waterproof cam to capture my trip. Well... As I was coming into Costa after a full night of flights the sun was just rising and as we approached I witnessed greens that I had never seen. I'd never seen anything so green vast and alive bordering the biggest bluest sea i'd ever seen. I was instantly alive in it like a child I was awake for the first time. Something had already changed and I wasn't even on the ground yet. I knew I'd found it: The Why! It was back, my reason to live was rapidly flooding back in. My perception was young awakened, I was alive again.

As The fire only continually did grow as the stoke and the flow carried me into Tropical jungle lined with beaches unknown. By now I was getting pretty adjusted to this new tool in my hands that was capturing my trip and freezing time. I began to learn editing on my Mac thru Iphoto 2010 and started realizing I had something of a nac. I liked editing better than capturing almost and would spend hours reflecting and tweaking pics until i got dramatic effects i saw in my mind. I was succeeding... I felt I was now the artist I wanted but lacked to be. I now had the tools, the vision, the dream! It out-shined even surfing for me, that says a lot if you know me! The greatest thing about it tho was all the silent time behind the lens. It was where I was made to focus as I desired to capture the newness in front of me. It was through this process that I was being healed and reminded of the beauty of life even in death. My mother's parting gift was photography. Now 5 years later I shoot with a lot more expensive and heavy gear. my hobby and gift are quickly becoming my income, career. my life... A life I love!