Update 6-28-25

It has been a while since my last update, At this point in time I am unable to dress or post any photos. My mother who is 93 took a really bad fall earlier this year. It unfortunately caused her to go into an accelerated dementia. Prior to falling she was just starting to show signs of it. Now her short term memory is under 5 minutes ,I am taking care of her for time being. So feel free to browse what photos I have and one day I shall return just don't know when.

Update 10-22-20

I have been working from home and dressing everyday, I finally got to go out one night in September. I t was my first time to be able to go to a Femme Fever support group meeting. I met some lovely girls we talked about everything that night. The moderator Karen does a fantastic job with us girls. as with most of us girls here on Flickr they to either wore their mothers or sisters clothes. Some were late bloomers, I was one of the few to be dressing since I was 11. One gal is thinking about transitioning so she is seeing a professional to be sure this is the right thing for her as well as her issues of why she feels the need to be feminine and dress. I left my house wearing baggy sweats and a hooded sweat shirt. But was fully made up and wearing a dress under all that. Large sunglasses help hide my eye makeup I was loving getting out again as Rachell. It was a fun evening which I will be doing again in November. This months meeting was cancelled as the mod had something come up.No pictures are taken as some girls are not comfortable having something posted on a sharing site, so I respected their right to privacy. My wife still has her health issues so I am hoping by next year we can get her well It make s me sad to see her in such pain and not being able to walk without crying. As for her understanding why I dress she still shakes her head, but has not made any negative comments. I explained that almost all of us really don't know why we have dress, we are just wired differently. She has said that I am a lot calmer since I have been dressing everyday. I figure that the built up desire to dress has been released so no anxiety.

I will update again after my going out in November. Stay well my girl friends and be safe in this crazy world.

Update 8-27-20

It's been 4 months since my last update, my wife is now tolerant of my dressing which is fine with me. I get to dress everyday for 8-12 hours while she is at work. I respect her wishes not to see me as Rachell so during the warm months I do not wear anything that is femme. During the cooler and winter months I will do back to under dressing on weekends when I can. I'll be working from home until next year so I have plenty of opportunities to dress everyday. So the urge will not be as back during normal times. I'll keep on posting photo's as it is my best outlet . I hope everyone stays well and keeps safe during these trying times.

Update 04/18/2020

It has been a month since I told my wife, after the initial shock wore off of telling and showing her she is a lot better with my dressing. So far I can wear any womans casual clothes I want around her and my bras but no dresses as of yet. I can wear some makeup, which for now is clear mascara and a light lip liner. I have found a lipstick that almost perfectly matches my natural lip color so I can wear that as well( no wigs yet). I have womans sneakers and a pair of sude short boots I can wear with my casual clothes. I can even wear my breast inserts at times. So little by little I'm getting her use to seeing me different. She will even give me a heads up if she is out so I can deconstruct ( she is not comfortable seeing me in full makeup). So this is far better that I could have hoped for, if we go out for any reason she would like me to be in drab save for my under things. With this pandemic going on getting out has not been an issue as of late. As for working from home this last month it has given me more me time than I ever have had. I figure a few more weeks before things try to go back to normal.So I'm going to make the most of it I can. So keep looking for more pictures until I have to return to the work force.

Update 03/22/2020

Today I told my wife about Rachell again the first time was 33 years ago.. When I showed her my photos she didn't even recognize me, she was also clueless even though I have been dropping clues for the last 2 years. She thought it was one of my girl friends. Her reaction was this chick was in our home, to which I replied no hun that's me. How do you look so different she asked. I explained I'm decent with makeup and I have all my own clothes and outfits. So because we will be home together at home for a few weeks because of the Corona virus I came out to her again. I can no longer control the urges all the time I need Rachell time as well. So we have a new chapter in the life of Rachell. I setup a few ground rules one of which I would let know when I was going out and with whom and where. I also would not come out to any of her friends or family. Which is fine I haven't told anyone close in 52 of my 63 years on this planet. So I don't have to lie to her any more which is a load off my mind. She countered with a few more of her own rule, all livable. At least I can dress more often and go out to see some of my girlfriends.. She still doesn't understand why I have to do this I explained it the way all we girls are wired. I invited her to my support group where the other SO's come from time to time, but that will not be until things go back to normal.

2-17-2020

Meet with April today, we had a great morning and afternoon. She traveled over 10 hours to see me.I was so flattered. She is such a great person and woman. Even Alisha came over for a short visit. Hope we can do this again and have a longer visit.

Update

Well on December 16, 2019 I met Alisha for the first time in person after more the 6 months talking through flicker , emails and the phone. We found out that we lived not too far away from each other and decided to spend a nice part of the day together just finding the day was a challenge. We met at a coffee bar, went all over town and took a lot of pictures and had a great day enjoying each others company. Some photos I posted and so has Alisha. We seen to have a chemistry together. I will be posting more of that day when I can.

11-26-19 I had a three hour window so I thought I would show off my shortest dress since I was in my 30's. I did not have have time to shop for shoes but these short boots are so comfortable and cute I thought they would look great with this dress. You could wear them 24/7 and not have your feet hurt.

11-3-19 had a unexpected 4 hour window so I made the best of the time and posted my new dress I found. It's a second hand fine but looks great . I love the builtin frilly slip. Hope you all liked it as well. For those who made nice comments I really appreciate it to those who just uploaded my photos I hope you really did like them.

Update 9-1-19

This Labor day weekend I got some Rachell time as you will see. Got to recycle a few dresses with different accessories to give them a new look with different shoes. To all who commented on my photos thank you , love you all. xxx

update

Today is Sunday 7-7-19 I had the whole day 24hrs to be Rachell , had a great time just being home and being a house wife. I cleaned the place From head to toe. my wife comes home sometime in the early AM so everything will be put away and back to normal for her. I appreciate all the feed back from everyone on all my photos posted today. Hugs and kisses to you all.

Update

July 4, 2019, the wife and daughter in-law went to Virginia to see my son at the army base. Leaving me alone for the 4 day weekend. So I have been Rachell for this long weekend with some outings in male mode for BBQ's. If I went as Rachell there would be all kinds of issues and problems. The best part is being able to walk my dogs E Fem, I get up before sunrise and dress in the skinny jean photos below with a few more to come. There are only a few people up that early who saw me as Rachell but as far as they could tell it was just a good looking blonde walking her dogs. It felt so great to walk the neighborhood as her I felt so feminine and sexy truly free to be me . I picked before sunup as I don't need the grief of all my neighbors find out about Rachell. So my wife will not be back until Sunday July 7th so I have today the 6th as well. I was suppose to meet a couple of girls I email with, but events and family matters prevented this. But I always put my family ahead of my own needs so I understand. perhaps later this summer or in the fall. It would have been nice to do a girls night out for the first time.

Unfortunately Saturday night was not to be but this morning April 7th. 2019 I was able to dress for a few hours and was able to try my new heels with my LBD and shoot a few pic's.

Just a quick note: I don't mind you downloading a slew of my pictures I find it very flattering, however could you please leave a comment or two every so often. Most of you do and I really appreciate the feed back. Thank you to all who do this as I try to do the same if you have something to share.

So tonight is April 6 , 2019 and is the last time for this week for me to dress for a while. I'll have to wait for another opportunity now . Had a blast with my two new girlfriends Jenni and Patti. As I'm sure they did with me. We are planning hopefully at some point in the future to go out in the evening as our fem selves. We would like to go to Femme Fever evening event. For those of you in my Tristate area they host an evening out once a month here on Long Island. The gal in charge is a beautiful GG that understands us T girls very well. All her events are designed to keep us safe and sound. She ever has a once a month bull session at her house for us as well where we are free to discus anything. Your S.O. is also free to come along as well so she or he can understand what we are feeling. My problem is that it all takes place during the work week and with my early morning schedule me going out in the evening I would have to do a lot of explaining to my wife and I don't want to go down that road yet. So check out their web site of the same name just add the dot com, you don't have to be from around here to look at what they offer. Plus they offer cross dresser merchandise, clothes etc. some of the prices are very reasonable.

Update: So far 2019 has been great, I finally got out and had a great time with my two girl friends. You can check out my latest photos. I hope to do this again soon. But for now I am on a high that only another CD can understand.

Just to reinforce what I said I will be purging from time to time people that have nothing to share. I don't need to see you pleasuring yourself. I have one of my own if I want to see that.

Same story as everyone, been dressing since I was 11, been doing it over 50 years now. Started with my mothers clothes (I have no sisters) . Unfortunately I'm a part time cross dresser who is married ,like most of us that has not told anyone about our little hobby , I have to look for opportunities to dress. Sorry I'm not into guys so please do not expect me to reply unless I feel you are a nice person who knows how to treat a lady, but at my discretion . Told my wife about me 32 years ago she really could not understand why, so as long as she does not know about it the better, not really supportive. She has never seen Rachell since I first told her, she thinks that I have stopped, but as we all know you can never really stop just little pauses. Been out a few times by myself e fem , this year I am going to get out more as Rachell when ever I can. I still have a ways to go with my make up techniques but it is getting better every time I do it. I didn't always have to use a lot of makeup only as I got older and that's when I really had to practice doing it better. I started corset training these last few years at least twice a week to improve my figure to be more passable when I do go out. As time goes on I'll be adding more pictures but for now I've posted what I think makes me look my best and prettiest. I will block you if you do not have a picture and something about yourself and you choose to follow me, and please no nude photos. I some cases I will make an exception but at my desecration but if all you have is just you and your thing pictures I and nothing else I will certainly block you. This is suppose to be a sharing site and if you are that afraid someone may recognize you maybe you shouldn't be here in the first place