Update February 2025

 

This first section is the result of years of research, observation and self introspection.

 

The reason for my feelings and behaviour have long been a source of bewilderment. I have recently come to a point of clarity in which things now make (some) sense.

 

The following is my personal thoughts and feelings but I am fairly certain these determinations apply to all or most of my kind. If one's experiences differ from my conclusions it is not my intention to offend. Also I feel I can only comment on male to female behavior as this is my experience and my community.

 

This is what I found perplexing:-

 

1/ Arousal at the thought of being a girl years before puberty and the years beyond. The allure of female clothing and associated paraphernalia that exists to this day.

2/ No display of effeminate behaviour.

3/ No desire to play with feminine toys.

4/ No interest in intimacy with a man.

5/ The massive contrast between myself and pre op effeminate homosexual transexuals.

 

I first read of Autogynephilia (hereon referred to as AGP) more than twenty years ago. I was fascinated. It described my behaviour perfectly. When discussed among my crossdressing friends, almost all vehemently denied it. I now know enough to believe that the deniers were not telling the truth.

 

I cannot say that there is two types of mtf transexual. There is only one. But there are two types of people who seek gender affirming intervention, care or surgery.

 

One is a mtf transexual. A person who has behaved like a little girl since her beginning. She could no more act like a man than fly to the moon. Not one of my 1 to 4 findings apply to her. She is a girl and that is that.

 

The other is a male suffering from AGP.

 

I believe AGP to be a sexual orientation. One is born with it just like heterosexuality or homosexuality. It is inherent.

 

AGP is a rare subset of heterosexuality. All AGP's are heterosexual but not all heterosexuals are AGP.

 

Transexuality is a rare subset of homosexuality. All transexuals are homosexual but not all homosexuals are transexual.

 

Where does this leave the AGPs?

 

Until the rise of the militant confrontational fetishistic crossdresser revolution we non-confrontational crossdressers were left in relative peace.

 

Not so now.

 

The LGB community is off side to the extent that they are publicly denouncing all male to female behaviour and not wanting us under their umbrella. I absolutely understand their point of view.

 

The militant confrontational fetishistic crossdressers, have destroyed whatever goodwill there was toward non-confrontational autogynephillic crossdressers.

 

We have men beating up women in the boxing ring, men beating up women in the MMA arena, men beating women in the swimming pool, men beating women on all manner of sporting fields, convicted men demanding to be housed in women's prisons and the world has had enough.

 

So have I.

 

My crossdressing friends and I would dress and behave as inconspicuously as possible and go about our business with very little worry that our presence would be upsetting to any one. Not any longer, not now. Thanks to the obnoxious few that have absolutely alienated society against any male to female presentation.

 

I understand the LGB view because I too share the desire to not be associated with these viciously cruel militant selfish self entitled people.

 

I don't envisage the previously enjoyed goodwill returning any time soon.

  

Jan Wilson 07/02/2025

     

Insights - Jan and being Transgender. ♂ → ♀

  

Please do not add me if you have any depiction of male genitalia whatsoever associated with your account. This includes your photostream and your favourites. I really do not want my image along side a photo of someone displaying a penis. Thanks so much xxx

  

Gender Dysphoria has been a major part of my life since I can remember.

I appreciate that it is difficult for those who have not experienced GD to understand but it is often quite debilitating.

When presenting as my preferred gender I know I am a different person. That is not to say that I am a fake when presenting as a male but I am much more relaxed and happy when in my true feminine persona.

I have been socialising as a woman since 2004 and have made some very special friends.and had some lovely experiences.

I am very blessed to have a loving and accepting family and this is something I absolutely cherish.

We are very fortunate to live in a time and a country that is tolerant of gender diversity, something for which I am ever grateful.

  

Some Insights into Janny.

  

I adore digital photography. It is God's way of making amends for what he did to us.

  

I am in a most fortunate position in that I have a wonderfully accepting family. I am blessed and I do not take this lightly or for granted. I know of many in my situation who have lost family and this makes me truly sad. I cannot explain exactly why this happens any more than I can explain transgenderism but I think, from observation, that family rejects when embarrassment takes over.

  

I'm not ashamed to dress like a woman because I don't think it's shameful to be a woman.

  

I love to make new friends. Please feel free to send me a message. If you do wish to become my friend please post a comment on my photostream before adding me, I feel this makes us better friends and our friendship not too superficial.

  

I especially enjoy reading informative profiles.

  

I first experienced feminine feelings at three years of age. It is my earliest memory.

  

As for labels I really don't care. Call me a transvestite, t girl, crossdresser, transgender, tranny or whatever. The only thing I do not like to see is girls written as 'gurls'. Where did 'gurl' come from? When enfemme we are girls or perhaps more accurately women. That is how I feel and that is what I am. I am a don't call me a gurl girl. As a matter of fact I have avoided any group with 'gurl' in the title and choose not to respond to any 'gurl' reference.

  

I have absolutely no reasonable explanation why I have the driving need to express myself as a woman. I have read volumes on the subject over many years and I have reached the conclusion that no one truly knows. I do believe that there are people who are born in the wrong physical gender to their psychological gender. These people often display their true gender to the world at an early age, refuse to conform to their birth gender and do not in any way attempt to hide the fact.

  

Those like myself who have functioned successfully in our birth gender and have hidden our cross gender feelings are I think a different case altogether.

  

Could it be so simple as we enjoy presenting as the opposite gender to the extent that some of us choose to live our lives as the opposite sex full time. Simply put, given the choice and the opportunity, we prefer to be women.

  

The older I become the more I wonder why someone like myself choosing to present as female is such a big deal to some. Things are improving and that's nice.

  

Things I Like

  

People making an effort to present nicely.

 

Excellent personal hygiene.

 

Interesting profile stories.

 

Pretty dresses.

 

Caring people.

 

Makeup.

 

Shopping.

 

Smooth skin.

 

Drop earrings.

 

Good conversationalists who are also good listeners.

  

Things I Don't Like.

  

Smoking, smokers, cigarettes but not fags.

 

Self absorbed people.

 

Tasteless photos of male genitalia.

 

Tasteless photos of hairy male bodies in ladies underwear.

 

Tasteless photos of lewd acts.

 

Tasteless photos.

 

Tattoos. (On anyone)

 

Foul language.

 

The word 'gurl' in any context.

 

Poor hygiene.

 

Micro minis on anyone over the age of sixteen.

 

Ugly shorts.

 

Clownish makeup.

 

Homophobes.

 

Hypocrites.

 

Fibbers.

 

Thieves.

 

Narcissists.

 

Illicit drugs in any form.

 

Poker machines.

 

People who cannot be bothered to spell correctly - God knows the internet provides the answers.

 

T Girls giving themselves super weird names.

  

Jan.

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