Deadly spider with bug
I have arachophobia so every spider looks deadly; it doesn't matter at all if the spider is little or big or venomous to humans or not. It is not a rational fear which is what makes it a phobia I guess. I can't look at a spider in a book or on the computer monitor. When I scroll through Explore, if one of the pictures is of a spider, I immediately shut my eyes and scroll further down the page so I don't have to see it again (I am writing this with the spider picture out of my view). If I see a live spider I scream (or at least eeek very loudly) and run away. I beg anyone around to kill it. They are the only living things that I KNOW want to die. If I have one on me, I absolutely freeze - I can hardly breath and and I'm to afraid to make make a sound of any kind.
Well, about 3 weeks ago, a spider built a web right in front of the window that my computer faces. This means for 3 weeks I have had to avert my gaze so that I don't get even a peripheral view of this thing. This morning, I decided to see if I could look at it through a lens knowing there were two layers of glass between us (it helped that Jimmy was there with me and he wasn't afraid of the spider). I almost couldn't do it but then I noticed that the image was too dark so I needed to either increase my aperture or decrease my shutter speed. Then the spider moved and the picture was out of focus so I needed to retake it ... This went on. I discovered that as long as I was seeing the spider through the lens and as a subject, I could do it. Unfortunately that new-found bravery didn't carry through to other situations. I couldn't look at the picture when I went to upload it onto Fickr and I can't look at it now. I'm not sure I will be able to keep it on my photostream because I can't have it keep popping up in front of me every time I scroll through my pictures.
Anyway, I hope someone likes this because it was the most difficult picture I've ever taken. That black thing up by his mouth used to be a bug. He rolled it around and it became this round tar-like looking stuff. He ate the whole thing and then left.
I've included a pretty flower in the comments in case you need something to get rid of that spider image that is burned onto your retinas.
Deadly spider with bug
I have arachophobia so every spider looks deadly; it doesn't matter at all if the spider is little or big or venomous to humans or not. It is not a rational fear which is what makes it a phobia I guess. I can't look at a spider in a book or on the computer monitor. When I scroll through Explore, if one of the pictures is of a spider, I immediately shut my eyes and scroll further down the page so I don't have to see it again (I am writing this with the spider picture out of my view). If I see a live spider I scream (or at least eeek very loudly) and run away. I beg anyone around to kill it. They are the only living things that I KNOW want to die. If I have one on me, I absolutely freeze - I can hardly breath and and I'm to afraid to make make a sound of any kind.
Well, about 3 weeks ago, a spider built a web right in front of the window that my computer faces. This means for 3 weeks I have had to avert my gaze so that I don't get even a peripheral view of this thing. This morning, I decided to see if I could look at it through a lens knowing there were two layers of glass between us (it helped that Jimmy was there with me and he wasn't afraid of the spider). I almost couldn't do it but then I noticed that the image was too dark so I needed to either increase my aperture or decrease my shutter speed. Then the spider moved and the picture was out of focus so I needed to retake it ... This went on. I discovered that as long as I was seeing the spider through the lens and as a subject, I could do it. Unfortunately that new-found bravery didn't carry through to other situations. I couldn't look at the picture when I went to upload it onto Fickr and I can't look at it now. I'm not sure I will be able to keep it on my photostream because I can't have it keep popping up in front of me every time I scroll through my pictures.
Anyway, I hope someone likes this because it was the most difficult picture I've ever taken. That black thing up by his mouth used to be a bug. He rolled it around and it became this round tar-like looking stuff. He ate the whole thing and then left.
I've included a pretty flower in the comments in case you need something to get rid of that spider image that is burned onto your retinas.