234/365. Reflection.

Greetings from the MGM Hotel in Las Vegas! I am currently attending WPPI 2015 (nerdgasm).

 

This photo turned out to be a happy accident. The lighting in this bathroom is ah-ma-zing. Its a weirdly beautiful bathroom? I could have sooo much fun with a model in here.

But I came in here to see if I could just do ANYTHING. I took a selfie in the mirror and I was just playing with what I could do with my camera in my hands. And then this came to pass.

But you know what? It just so happens to be my exact state of mind right now.

 

I broke up with my long term boyfriend and best friend the day before attending this conference so it's been tough. I find myself with a gaping hole in my heart and entire way of life, and, because I don't think he'll ever see this, I'm having trouble resisting the urge to get really drunk just so I'll have an excuse to call him. I don't think we were meant to be partners in life... but did we just fit. I don't want this to become a rant about my relationship troubles (which it kind of already has... whoever is still reading this I applaud and thank you!) but I find in this very, very difficult time, I'm having to do a TON of self reflection. Both up close, and from afar. I want to be a better person. I don't want this breakup to destroy me or eat me up. I want to have learned. I feel raw and open and I don't particularly want to let anyone in. But maybe right now is the perfect time to let people in. Ya feel?

-end rant-

Done